I have to go sit in a quiet place now, because now I just see crazy porn, and Theodore biting Blaise because how can you love someone so much and hate them for making you be that in love? It's the sort of thing that makes Theodore crazy. He loves Neville dearly; every good thing that he strives to be Neville already is. And every time they're together, he tells himself that Neville is his future, but when he's with Blaise, the future doesn't matter.
Blaise is about Theodore's now. Blaise is all sarcasm and biting wit and trying so hard not to care, because then you can't get hurt. When Blaise touches him, minutely every part of Theodore's being comes alive and responds. Every thought Theodore has ever been able to have, Blaise already knows. Every hope, every dream, every devious scheme Blaise shares without a word.
Blaise has these eyes that track Theodore when they're not even together, and that's why Theodore can't stay away. It's why even when Theodore's with Neville's he's thinking of Blaise, and when their fingers brush against each other, or Blaise breathes on him, Theodore's skin goes hot and his heart does weird things in his chest. He can't concentrate on anything else around Blaise anymore, and it didn't used to be this way. If it had been this bad before then Theodore never would've been able to fall in love with Neville.
But that was then, and this is now, and Theodore just needs Blaise. He needs to touch him, and feel him, get past this thing that's sitting on his chest and making it hard to breathe. This is why he has to kiss Blaise, over and over and over, until his tips are tender and his jaw aches.
This is why Neville will leave him eventually, because Theodore just can't leave Blaise alone.
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I have to go sit in a quiet place now, because now I just see crazy porn, and Theodore biting Blaise because how can you love someone so much and hate them for making you be that in love? It's the sort of thing that makes Theodore crazy. He loves Neville dearly; every good thing that he strives to be Neville already is. And every time they're together, he tells himself that Neville is his future, but when he's with Blaise, the future doesn't matter.
Blaise is about Theodore's now. Blaise is all sarcasm and biting wit and trying so hard not to care, because then you can't get hurt. When Blaise touches him, minutely every part of Theodore's being comes alive and responds. Every thought Theodore has ever been able to have, Blaise already knows. Every hope, every dream, every devious scheme Blaise shares without a word.
Blaise has these eyes that track Theodore when they're not even together, and that's why Theodore can't stay away. It's why even when Theodore's with Neville's he's thinking of Blaise, and when their fingers brush against each other, or Blaise breathes on him, Theodore's skin goes hot and his heart does weird things in his chest. He can't concentrate on anything else around Blaise anymore, and it didn't used to be this way. If it had been this bad before then Theodore never would've been able to fall in love with Neville.
But that was then, and this is now, and Theodore just needs Blaise. He needs to touch him, and feel him, get past this thing that's sitting on his chest and making it hard to breathe. This is why he has to kiss Blaise, over and over and over, until his tips are tender and his jaw aches.
This is why Neville will leave him eventually, because Theodore just can't leave Blaise alone.
Um, wow. I had no idea it was so serious.