‘I made my excuses to you all’

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It’s a comeuppance kinda day in my book. I’m tired of Billy being the second choice, and Lex sitting about waiting on Clark’s sorry, lying arse.

Rule number one: If you don’t like the way things are going, change them

LOTRips: Closer than Others
Smallville: The End



There’s an undeniable satisfaction in shutting the door in someone’s face.

There’s a finality to the action that doesn’t come very often in life, no matter what emotions come after it. No matter what lies have come before. Shutting the door is shutting the door is saying ‘enough.’

Lex has had enough.

*

All Clark had to do was tell the truth. Just once.

Lex could’ve hung on longer if Clark had just come clean once about the car/the life saving/ the cracks in the pool table. But he didn’t.

Instead he looked over Lex’s shoulder. Or he shuffled his feet. Or he bit his lip and mumbled some half–assed excuse that it hurt Lex’s teeth to have to listen to.

But because Lex cared… because he wanted to believe.

It was okay.

Because Lex was in love.

*

Clark would say “I can’t.’”

And Lex would say “Okay.”

Clark would say, “You don’t deserve to know because you've hurt me.”

And Lex would say, “You’re right. I’m not worthy.”

But Lex was worthy. Lex is worthy.

He just denied that because of Clark.

Alexander has a destiny.

It will not be denied.

*

And everything was fine for while. Except for when it wasn’t.

And then Lex met Helen, and she didn’t lie. At least not a lot.

And that was… better.

It was certainly different.

*

But Helen wasn’t the right one.

So once again Lex became susceptible, and he let Clark lie.

And Clark lied. A lot.

And Lex let him. Because he was in love.

And then Clark went to college, and Lex followed.

So did the lies.

*

And then one day everything changed.

One day Lex was pushed too far.

He had an accident and was saved by a guy in spandex wearing Clark’s face.

Clark had chemistry lab on Wednesday afternoons.

He came home bitching about compounds.

And Lex blinked.

And he said, “Leave.”

And he shut the door. Finally.

Comments

[rontgenkatze.livejournal.com]

This makes my teeth hurt for Lex. Poor guy, he does try so hard. He lets Clark get away with so much that he'd never allow from others.
Thanks so much for vindicating him, even if it is just in our little SV universe.

[missu.livejournal.com]

*ow* That one-two punch to my gut still hurts.

Sharp and painful. And very, very good.

[attolia.livejournal.com]

I’m tired of Billy being the second choice, and Lex sitting about waiting on Clark’s sorry, lying arse.

I find myself torn because I want them to be together, but I don't want Lex to have to have to put up with too much. Sometimes you have to say "enough" even if it hurts.

Sigh.

[kattiya.livejournal.com]

*runs here after reading LOTRips*

god, what are you trying to do to me? i was happy happy for billy at the end of closer. this

"You win. He loves you. Come and claim him."

So Elijah made the call.

And Billy picked up the phone.

And that's where the story ends.

had me shouting "yes!"

and then i come here and you break me. sadist. (not that it isn't deserved but still - *ouch*)

[aelita.livejournal.com]

Ouch. You go, Lex. Shut the damn door. Because you do deserve the damn truth and you do deserve to be loved. *nod* Now come here for a nice hug.

[twigged.livejournal.com]

Clark is a lying little bitch. Lex needs hugs. ::sniff::

[r1cepudding.livejournal.com]

Aaargh. It's sad, but in a kind of righteous disgust way. It echoed the scene with Martha and Clark, talking about doors closing, and how Clark wants to keep it open because he cares for Lana. Here, you really felt how much Lex is willing to put up with and keep holding back for because he loves Clark so much.

And I felt immensely satisfied, in a sad, inevitable kind of way, when Lex shut the door. Woo!

[rageprufrock.livejournal.com]

So...with the love? And the sad?

I'm not actually as broken up about this as other people seem to be because, well, okay, my Clark issues, but this feels like it was long time coming. :) I like this a lot, Zahra. *smooches*

[devin-chain.livejournal.com]

Yes Lex! And this is so why I don't like to write Clark POV unless I can make him miserable *g*. But please tell me this doesn't mean the end of SV Zahrafics. Because that would just make me want to take pliers to my molars.
D.

[smallcondo.livejournal.com]

About damn time! that lying sack of doo doo doesn't deserve that many chances.

It hurt, but finality always does.

Rule number one: If you don’t like the way things are going, change them

Right on.

[happyminion.livejournal.com]

Ouch. But in a good way!

You know, in my mind, this is the root of The Rift. In the end, Lex has just had enough.

[rhiannonhero.livejournal.com]

Loved it. Lex finally has enough. It is bound to happen.

You know, I hate to ask this because I'm sure everyone knows but me. I'm not in LOTR fandom, so please excuse my ignorance. But are two of the actors actually dating? *confused*

[andariell.livejournal.com]

And then Clark went to college, and Lex followed.

So did the lies.

*sniff*

Yeah. There's that old saying "sad but true", and cliche or not, this story really hits that point right on the nose. One day, Lex will have to say enough is enough, and I wouldn't want to be in Clark's shoes when that happens.

Thanks for sharing, hon.

so nice!!

[ophelion.livejournal.com]

The angst is just beautiful. Thank you.

[redfirecracker.livejournal.com]

God, that hurts. I mean, in reality, you know that sometimes you've got to shut a door in someone's face . . . but in fic? Give me denial or give me death.

Great writing, though -- my disagreement with the ending notwithstanding.