‘I made my excuses to you all’
Apr. 11th, 2003 11:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hackthis_archiveIt’s a comeuppance kinda day in my book. I’m tired of Billy being the second choice, and Lex sitting about waiting on Clark’s sorry, lying arse.
Rule number one: If you don’t like the way things are going, change them
LOTRips: Closer than Others
Smallville: The End
There’s an undeniable satisfaction in shutting the door in someone’s face.
There’s a finality to the action that doesn’t come very often in life, no matter what emotions come after it. No matter what lies have come before. Shutting the door is shutting the door is saying ‘enough.’
Lex has had enough.
*
All Clark had to do was tell the truth. Just once.
Lex could’ve hung on longer if Clark had just come clean once about the car/the life saving/ the cracks in the pool table. But he didn’t.
Instead he looked over Lex’s shoulder. Or he shuffled his feet. Or he bit his lip and mumbled some half–assed excuse that it hurt Lex’s teeth to have to listen to.
But because Lex cared… because he wanted to believe.
It was okay.
Because Lex was in love.
*
Clark would say “I can’t.’”
And Lex would say “Okay.”
Clark would say, “You don’t deserve to know because you've hurt me.”
And Lex would say, “You’re right. I’m not worthy.”
But Lex was worthy. Lex is worthy.
He just denied that because of Clark.
Alexander has a destiny.
It will not be denied.
*
And everything was fine for while. Except for when it wasn’t.
And then Lex met Helen, and she didn’t lie. At least not a lot.
And that was… better.
It was certainly different.
*
But Helen wasn’t the right one.
So once again Lex became susceptible, and he let Clark lie.
And Clark lied. A lot.
And Lex let him. Because he was in love.
And then Clark went to college, and Lex followed.
So did the lies.
*
And then one day everything changed.
One day Lex was pushed too far.
He had an accident and was saved by a guy in spandex wearing Clark’s face.
Clark had chemistry lab on Wednesday afternoons.
He came home bitching about compounds.
And Lex blinked.
And he said, “Leave.”
And he shut the door. Finally.
Rule number one: If you don’t like the way things are going, change them
LOTRips: Closer than Others
Smallville: The End
There’s an undeniable satisfaction in shutting the door in someone’s face.
There’s a finality to the action that doesn’t come very often in life, no matter what emotions come after it. No matter what lies have come before. Shutting the door is shutting the door is saying ‘enough.’
Lex has had enough.
*
All Clark had to do was tell the truth. Just once.
Lex could’ve hung on longer if Clark had just come clean once about the car/the life saving/ the cracks in the pool table. But he didn’t.
Instead he looked over Lex’s shoulder. Or he shuffled his feet. Or he bit his lip and mumbled some half–assed excuse that it hurt Lex’s teeth to have to listen to.
But because Lex cared… because he wanted to believe.
It was okay.
Because Lex was in love.
*
Clark would say “I can’t.’”
And Lex would say “Okay.”
Clark would say, “You don’t deserve to know because you've hurt me.”
And Lex would say, “You’re right. I’m not worthy.”
But Lex was worthy. Lex is worthy.
He just denied that because of Clark.
Alexander has a destiny.
It will not be denied.
*
And everything was fine for while. Except for when it wasn’t.
And then Lex met Helen, and she didn’t lie. At least not a lot.
And that was… better.
It was certainly different.
*
But Helen wasn’t the right one.
So once again Lex became susceptible, and he let Clark lie.
And Clark lied. A lot.
And Lex let him. Because he was in love.
And then Clark went to college, and Lex followed.
So did the lies.
*
And then one day everything changed.
One day Lex was pushed too far.
He had an accident and was saved by a guy in spandex wearing Clark’s face.
Clark had chemistry lab on Wednesday afternoons.
He came home bitching about compounds.
And Lex blinked.
And he said, “Leave.”
And he shut the door. Finally.
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Date: 2003-04-11 11:24 am (UTC)Thanks so much for vindicating him, even if it is just in our little SV universe.
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:17 pm (UTC)Thanks so much for vindicating him, even if it is just in our little SV universe.
A little vindication goes a long way in my book. I'm so glad that you liked this. Thank you.
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Date: 2003-04-11 11:25 am (UTC)Sharp and painful. And very, very good.
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:18 pm (UTC)Sharp and painful. And very, very good.
I'm so glad that you enjoyed this, thank you.
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Date: 2003-04-11 11:47 am (UTC)I find myself torn because I want them to be together, but I don't want Lex to have to have to put up with too much. Sometimes you have to say "enough" even if it hurts.
Sigh.
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:20 pm (UTC)Sigh.
That's life isn't it though? Eventually you always have to decide when enough is enough.
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Date: 2003-04-11 11:47 am (UTC)god, what are you trying to do to me? i was happy happy for billy at the end of closer. this
"You win. He loves you. Come and claim him."
So Elijah made the call.
And Billy picked up the phone.
And that's where the story ends.
had me shouting "yes!"
and then i come here and you break me. sadist. (not that it isn't deserved but still - *ouch*)
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:23 pm (UTC)god, what are you trying to do to me? i was happy happy for billy at the end of closer...this
had me shouting "yes!"
and then i come here and you break me. sadist. (not that it isn't deserved but still - *ouch*)
A little pain goes a long way. I want my boys to be happy. Or if not happy at least not treated like their stupid, because they're not. You know?
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Date: 2003-04-11 11:52 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-11 02:23 pm (UTC)Word! That's what I said. *wink*
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Date: 2003-04-11 11:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-11 12:06 pm (UTC)And I felt immensely satisfied, in a sad, inevitable kind of way, when Lex shut the door. Woo!
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:25 pm (UTC)My sentiments exactly.
Now speaking of inevitability and the like, what do you have in mind for your birthday?
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:59 pm (UTC)Ooooh. *thinks* I don't know. I like anything you write, so...
But. Happy. I'm all about the happy. Especially because you do it so well. *bats eyes*
Eee! Zahrafic! *spins wildly*
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Date: 2003-04-11 12:29 pm (UTC)I'm not actually as broken up about this as other people seem to be because, well, okay, my Clark issues, but this feels like it was long time coming. :) I like this a lot, Zahra. *smooches*
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:27 pm (UTC)It is a long time coming, but you know, people can only put up with so much before 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!' Yes, that's my sentiment. I'm glad you liked it, sweetie.
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Date: 2003-04-11 12:35 pm (UTC)D.
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:33 pm (UTC)D.
I'm not going anywhere, darling, except away for the weekend - and if I do, I promise to say good-bye first. Keep your teeth in tact *smile*
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Date: 2003-04-11 01:31 pm (UTC)It hurt, but finality always does.
Rule number one: If you don’t like the way things are going, change them
Right on.
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-11 01:45 pm (UTC)You know, in my mind, this is the root of The Rift. In the end, Lex has just had enough.
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:36 pm (UTC)You know, in my mind, this is the root of The Rift. In the end, Lex has just had enough.
I can see that. I think there just comes a time when you have to call it quits, you know?
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:12 pm (UTC)You know, I hate to ask this because I'm sure everyone knows but me. I'm not in LOTR fandom, so please excuse my ignorance. But are two of the actors actually dating? *confused*
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Date: 2003-04-11 02:32 pm (UTC)My involvement in LOTRips extends only to writing, and most of that is only of my own devising, so as far as I know no one is dating. I tend to be extremely hands off in regards to RL people, even in writing said stories (I know hard to believe).
There are lots of schools of thought regarding all sorts of cast involvement (I keep hearing about tin-foil hats and color signals), but I couldn't really tell you a lot about it beyond what's available writing-wise. Does that help at all?
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Date: 2003-04-11 03:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-11 02:40 pm (UTC)So did the lies.
*sniff*
Yeah. There's that old saying "sad but true", and cliche or not, this story really hits that point right on the nose. One day, Lex will have to say enough is enough, and I wouldn't want to be in Clark's shoes when that happens.
Thanks for sharing, hon.
so nice!!
Date: 2003-04-11 09:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-14 02:09 pm (UTC)Great writing, though -- my disagreement with the ending notwithstanding.