For my own edification

[hackthis_archive]

dameange, I know it’s your birthday and I tried to write you so SV, but it sucked. Happy Birthday, nevertheless. You are appreciated.

1. I have LJ codes if anybody needs some.

2. I’m pondering what to do with this LJ, so if you lot could answer this question for me I'd appreciate it:

[Poll #135357]
3. Edited at 1:06pm happyminion asked, so I'm putting it here, but I'm not terribly happy with it.

Smallville
The Consort



1. ashes of american flags

Lex was not the last son.

Lucas was the last son, which meant that Lex was never going to rule. But Lex has never been that good with the ‘if and then’ school of thought. Lex has always had other plans. If you can’t beat them, join them, or something to that effect. Whatever the case, certainly don’t let the proverbial ‘them’ get away.

Do not, under any circumstances, allow 'them' to take all the credit. Make deals. Make offers. Take what is yours by right of birth.

The world belongs to Lex.

The world is not enough.

This is where Clark comes in.


2. kamera

Lex has always known the truth.

Or he’s always known some semblance of the truth.

He had wanted the words for formality’s sake. But they were never said. They were just assumed in light of the thousands of pictures and millions of deeds. There were vials and dented cars and all sorts of proof. Lex has never actually needed the proof, but he collected it anyway.

Just because he could. Because he can.

Lex does a lot of things just because he can.

The first time Clark’s spectacle-free visage christened the front page of the Daily Planet, Lex bought out every newsstand in a five-block radius.


3. jesus, etc.

It’s the Messiah complex in living, breathing spandex. The color is awful.

The boots and cape are even worse.

Lex lost that argument; he doesn’t lose that many. Truthfully, he didn’t fight this one very hard, because everyone should make concessions every now and then. In the spirit of benevolence.

In the spirit of being seen as obliging.

A true alpha male always makes his wishes someone else’s idea: it could have been all red.

If Clark is the Messiah, then Lex is God.

Lex may stand at the right hand of The Champion, but he’s the one pulling the strings.

Lex is no one’s consort.


4. i am trying to break your heart

It's not simple.

It never will be.

There will never be a happily ever after.

They have accepted this. They've had no choice.


5. poor places

Lex left Smallville one cool August afternoon, several years ago. He packed up his clothing, his personal effects and his staff. He did not say good-bye to anyone. He has not been back since then.

The castle was razed shortly after he left, along with everything that remained.

Clark goes back to Smallville at least twice a month. He never asks Lex to come with him, Lex doesn’t ask.

They don’t talk about personal things.

They don’t talk about a lot of things.

There are some rocks that are better left alone.


6. i’m the man who loves you

It is love. Of a certain kind. Or a certain breed.

They could never be with anyone else.

Of course other people wouldn’t understand this, but then again other people are not Lex and Clark.

Other people are not meant to understand that when the President builds Kryptonite warheads, he does it for the good of The Champion of the People. That he does it for the love of a man he claims to hate.

The proverbial thin line between love and hate is actually very very thin.

It’s non-existent for Clark and Lex.

Without one there is no other.

For them, this is love.


-finis-

Notes: Massive abuse of the Wilco album ‘Yankee Hotel Foxtrot’. Thanks to rosenho for once again being a voice of reason.

Comments

[lunaris1013.livejournal.com]

First it *was* SV, but like you say, disillusioned. I suffered through the bouts with Everwood and HP and LotRps because I figured you'd eventually find your sanity again.

X2, baby!

[happyminion.livejournal.com]

Where did The Consort go??!!?? I was trying to link to it in my LJ entry as a rec, damn it!

*sigh*

Don't get rid of the LJ. I read it all the time because it's you, doofus.

[aelita.livejournal.com]

How about three out of five? Smallville might be my personal favorite but I do enjoy Everwood and X-men *g*

[shirasade]

I know I said Lotrips - but it's also X-Men, that's for sure. And oh, pretty much everything, just because it's you. And you rock, just so you know. :D

[phineasjones.livejournal.com]

all of the above, yo. all of the above.

except maybe smallville

[resmin.livejournal.com]

I voted for Everwood, but honestly I'm just here because you amuse me. If I need a better reason lemme know. Otherwise- *sits down and stares at you*
Carry on with your life as necessary.

Oh. and where's my Bright fic at?
damnit.

All of the above ...

[zing_och.livejournal.com]

except maybe the drugs.

I love all of your fic, and I know I'll cave some day and read the Everwood stuff, too, although I've never seen a minute of the show. I've started reading the LOTRips, after all, even if I can't remember who these people are. You're one of the writers I'll follow everywhere, so don't go away! Or at least let us follow.

[ranalore.livejournal.com]

I'm reading this LJ for the zahra. I am far too much a fannish butterfly to follow someone's LJ unless I'm interested in them as well as whatever fandom I discovered them in. So you go ahead and write about mold samples and dog parks, if that's what suits your fancy. I will still want to take you to lunch if I'm ever up the coast. How do you feel about sushi?

[shellies.livejournal.com]

answer to quiz:

used to be for smallville.. now mainly for Lotrips, X2.. would scream like a happy happy girl if you wrote more HP

[barely-bean.livejournal.com]

Psst. Try and get rid of me doll. Er. On second thought. Don't. Anyway, I think I'm gonna be sticking around for a while, clinging to your ankles like a very annoying 2 year old.

As for SV, I don't know. Maybe it's just that I never expected anything much from them. They gave us characters and a world to play with. But in honesty, I prefer watching the tales you guys weave instead.

[suaine.livejournal.com]

Must be the drugs ;)

Honestly though, do with the journal as you please. If you don't want to write SV (well, *who* would with *that* canon) then don't. Same goes for HP (aww, you're so *good* with that) or LOTR. Whatever you want to do is up to you.

And since I have just seen X2 I'd say more power to that. Loved your fics on that.

Do what feels right to you :)

[obsessedmuch.livejournal.com]

Step away from the antihistamines, baby.

[crimson-stained.livejournal.com]

You write beautifully...fics and posts.

Wah. You have...post-presence.

*hums* My brother needs an LJ code if you have any left. He needs one to post about his sex life a la Joel. I'd prefer if he didn't whinge on about it in mine. ^.~

<3<3<3

[jukeboxromeo.livejournal.com]

What do you mean I can only choose one? Smallville, Everwood *AND* X2. I'm a greedy girl.

[minitrog.livejournal.com]

Most of the fic you write at the moment is for shows I don't watch. I loved the Oceans 11 bit tho', and live in hope of people I care about spilling out of your pen again.

Either way tho' pet, I read your journal for the youishness of it. There you go!

Mwah!

[chevauchee.livejournal.com]

Came for the Lotrips, staying for the X2.

[fearlessdiva.livejournal.com]

I'll read pretty much whatever you write. I'm here for the You, you doofus.

Except for the Everwood. Homie don't play Everwood.

[ladysorka]

I'm a fannish whore. How about all of the above?

I love your writing style. Doesn't matter the fandom. *g*

[darkvictory.livejournal.com]

You didn't give us the option of picking more than one on the poll! I read everything you write, except for the Smallville stuff. And sometimes I read that, too. So there ya go. :D

[anaimos.livejournal.com]

I read it for HP and, now, X2. I ADORED Thermal - it was one of the first Bobby/John fics I read, and it's the only extended one that I've seen so far. The characterisation was lovely - most of what I've seen has been PWP and that annoys me; I want to get into the characters' heads and read something focused on the characters' personalities. So, I loved reading Thermal and it's my favourite Bobby/St. John fic.

[redfirecracker.livejournal.com]

Okay -- put down the meds, and back away slowly.

Idjit. I read this journal because it's *you*, of course.

[mimine.livejournal.com]

Voted X2 because this is what drew me to your journal but I love your writing so I'll gladly read HP, SV, LOTRips and any other fandom you I may have a passing acquaintance with. I have no clue what Everwood is.

I loved your SV fic in ways I can't really express. It was pure poetry. Esp. liked Lex's opinion of Superman's uniform. And that last line truly killed me.

your newest fangirl

[rivki8699.livejournal.com]

Can't you add: "Every wonderful thing you write" because it's true. I started reading you for Smallville, but you've gotten me to read in fandoms I've never thought of before. So yeah, you should add an all of the above choice. Because all of the above are fabulous.

[cyclogenesis.livejournal.com]

I will have I Am Trying to Break Your Heart stuck in my head all afternoon now. That was good, man. The ending was nicely painful. The whole thing was, really. Angst like whoa. Good times.

Also, I cling to the hope that you'll write HP again someday, since you're so damned good at it. But honestly, you could stop writing fic at all and I would still like you because you're just cool like that. <3, man.

[dameange.livejournal.com]

story by you does not = suck

story by you = EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

thank you, i love it!

[alee-gothphyle.livejournal.com]

Without one there is no other.

I like this line. A LOT. The double meaning is wonderful; without love there is no hate, without Clark there is no Lex, and vice versa to both. Chilling, and twisted, and all kinds of wonderful. Thanks for posting this!

codes

[(Anonymous)]

hey, i just wanna say that your all of your stories rock my world. especially the x2 stuff. truely amazing. Also, you mentioned you had some lj codes left, and i'd love you forever if you could pass one on to me at ruby5x@excite.com. as of late there is too much angst and nowhere to post it.

[niqaeli]

Can't vote, 'cause I'm here for you. The fic is a tres cool bonus, but you amuse me. Um, in a good way, mind.