i never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passe

lord, i forgot how much i loved that damn song and then rosenho wrote this and all i could think was DRUGS! okay, sometimes the drugs don't work, but you know then there are those other times. stoner!lex, yes i believe i'm going to have to revisit him in the future.

speaking of revisiting things there are three things that i have to make a point of doing in the immediate future:

1) re-reading convergence by rushlight because it's not just good on a story level, it's fucking fascinating on a philosophical level. fascinating in that 'kass i was going to call your ass when i was dead drunk last night so we could discuss the chaos theory, but i thought that it might not be the smartest idea ever' way. y'all read that shit.

2) writing a proper ending for 'just looking.' i'm not going to call it a sequel because it's really not. i just feel like i short-shrifted myself at the end b/c i got freaked out at the length and losing the point, but you know fuck that. it's my goddamn story.

3) not listen when people say they're sober. if you're drunk enough to think you're sober, dude you are SO wasted.

for my own satisfaction.

i had a lot of problems with 'just looking' not as a story, but as something that i forced to be something it didn't want to be. i wanted to write happyminion a happy-fic, and that was happening for the first 12 pages and then lex got pissed off and i got freaked out. he wanted to fight, i was just trying to make a happy-ending. we compromised and nobody got off.

i need to make it up to lex as much as myself because i feel like i kinda short-changed us both. so there's thing. wherein you get nudity and anger and a hint of something that i might expand on.

it's not a sequel as much as a correction of sorts

( Just Looking Revisited: The View From The Inside )