This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time.

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This is what I wanted to write originally -- my take on that missing scene at the end. Yeah, you know that scene.

Spider-Man 2
My Name is Inigo Montoya


Harry Osborne has been in love with Peter Parker for entirely too long, and obviously this is why he didn't see the truth before, why he didn't realize Peter's secret sooner, because they fucking lived together and Harry couldn't see a damn thing for Peter's coke-bottle glasses and deceptively built frame. Harry fell for the packaging and never bothered to look and see how many Greeks were hiding inside his favorite Trojan horse.


*


I thought you were my friend, Harry says.

I am, Peter replies.

No, you're not. You're a goddamn liar.


*


At first Harry thought Peter's big secret was Mary Jane, and maybe that's why he started dating her in the first place. If he couldn't have Peter then at least he could have what Peter wanted the most in the world and that was kind of like having Peter. Except it wasn't, because MJ was a redhead, and kind of vapid, and she was a girl, and she so wasn't Pete. But Harry tried. He tried so hard, because his dad loved Peter and he thought that if his dad loved MJ then he could keep fooling himself, but no. His dad saw right through MJ and kept on thinking the sun rose out of Peter's ass, and so MJ had to go. And then his dad died, and it was all Spider-Man's fault, and that was when Harry needed Peter the most. God, Harry needed Peter so bad he could almost taste the cheap soap and the bad polyester and the alcohol that Peter never ever drank.


*


Why did you do this to me? Harry asks. He doesn't expect an answer.

Peter doesn't give one.


*


When his dad died, all Harry wanted was to climb into bed with Peter and never ever come out again. Fuck Oscorp. Fuck school. Fuck everything except getting fucked by his best friend -- but that never happened because Harry never made his move and Peter kept on working and not being around, and all Harry had for comfort was Maker's Mark.

It wasn't the whiskey's fault -- the whiskey provided a temporary burn and Peter, Peter just made Harry burn all the time. Peter made Harry burn the way Spider-Man made Harry ache for vengeance, and Harry thought those things were different. He thought that his love and hate were separate -- but they weren't, because the more Harry craved Peter's touch the more he craved Spider-Man's head on a platter. And then to find out that Peter was friends with Spider-Man? It was like being stabbed in the heart.


*


I loved you, Harry says. I would've done anything for you.

Peter -- Spider-Man blinks. Nothing has to change.

Bullshit.


*


Harry thought that Peter had chosen Spider-Man over him. He'd never taken Peter for a starfucker, but there was a first time for everything. He thought MJ had addled Pete's brain -- he thought. God, Harry had thought a lot of things.


*


If you think I'm letting you out of here, you better think again

He's got MJ.

Harry's sneer is automatic. Do you really think I care?


*


Harry was never a strong student in school; all the books and lessons and tests bored the shit out of him. As far as he was concerned the Table of Elements wouldn't do dick when the stockholders were screaming about the dip in share prices. Harry was born to be a businessman, and he had dreams of Peter doing the legwork and him footing the bill. Together they would bring Oscorp its second Nobel Prize. Now, though, now Harry wants an entirely different prize.


*


Harry--

Peter -- or should I call you Spider-Man?

It's so easy for Harry to wrap his hand around Peter's throat and push him back onto the ottoman. Harry has no doubt that Peter could break free if he wanted to -- but as far as Harry's concerned, Peter owes him more than this.


*


Harry's been dreaming about Peter Parker for years, not quite since they met in high school, but pretty fucking close. Probably since the day that Peter kicked Flash Thompson's ass during lunch. Harry'd always thought that Peter was kind of soft and slow, not mentally, but physically, Harry was pretty sure that anyone could kick Peter's ass. Harry'd always had enough money not to run into the sort of problems that Peter seemed to attract, but then Peter proved him wrong, and Harry went home that night and locked himself in his room. He turned up the alt-rock station way too loud and jerked off with the cheap, generic lotion that he picked up from the corner store. He'd chosen the cheapest brand, because Peter wasn't an Osborn and he probably couldn't afford the really expensive stuff, and that had set the course for a very long time.

Even when Harry had MJ, he thought about Pete. When they were fucking, all Harry could think about was how tight Peter probably was -- and now, now that Harry has Peter Parker stretched out underneath him, writhing in that hideous blue and red suit, he's having a very hard time remembering that he hates this man. Now that Harry has what he's always wanted, he's finding it very hard to decide if he's in love or hate.

He suspects they're sort of the same.


*


If I let you go --

I'll come back

You'll do more than that -- you killed my father; you're going to pay for that.

Harry --

You don't get to call me that anymore

I'm sorry.

Not yet, but you will be.


-end-



Dedicated to serialkarma who sat up with me last night and told me it didn't suck.

Comments

[cosmic.livejournal.com]

and now, now that Harry has Peter Parker stretched out underneath him, writhing in that hideous blue and red suit, he's having a very hard time remembering that he hates this man.

Oh jesus yes. *sniff*

Peter should have gone back. I'll never forgive the movie or the character for that. He should have gone back.

I heart your Harry.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Peter should have gone back. I'll never forgive the movie or the character for that. He should have gone back.

This is why someone created fan fiction: to right the wrongs of producers and directors everywhere.

[dorrie6.livejournal.com]

Does it suck that I totally ship Peter/MJ? Yeah. It does. And yet. You manage to draw me in, just like you do with Ron/Neville and all those other OTPs that really really aren't my OTP except that when I read your stories they are.

serialkarma does not lie.

So. Good.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I'm not much of an OTPer I'm more of a 'ooh, pretty, let's slash!' kind of girl. It's all about the unexpected combos.

[serialkarma.livejournal.com]

It still doesn't suck. It still rocks. especially this:

It wasn't the whiskey's fault -- the whiskey provided a temporary burn and Peter, Peter just made Harry burn all the time.

Love that line.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

The whiskey was for you; I know you know this.

[pennyproud.livejournal.com]

Honey, this is deliciously twisted. Full of sadness and confused rage, just like Harry. There's a real note of betrayal and sorrow, of *loss* in this story that I think helps you push Harry to an extreme without pushing him over the edge, you know?

This one's going to haunt me for a while now. You rock. Also, there needs to be more Spideyfic like whoa. I hope you start a fabulous trend. =)

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Honey, this is deliciously twisted. Full of sadness and confused rage, just like Harry. There's a real note of betrayal and sorrow, of *loss* in this story that I think helps you push Harry to an extreme without pushing him over the edge, you know?

This one's going to haunt me for a while now. You rock. Also, there needs to be more Spideyfic like whoa. I hope you start a fabulous trend. =)

Aw, you say the sweetest things! I'm so glad you liked it so much. Yay, go team me!

[flyingtapes.livejournal.com]

I'm so amused that you fell into this fandom. Though it is quite high with the slash.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I did not fall into the fandom *stomps foot* It's a fluke, dude, for real. Stop laughing.

"it kind of rides up the crotch a bit"

[twoskeletons.livejournal.com]

that hideous blue and red suit
It is, isn't it? Unlike this fic.

He suspects they're sort of the same.
THEY ARE. OMG THEY ARE THEY ARE.

Ye olde thumbs uppe like XD!

Bring it, bring it.

Re: "it kind of rides up the crotch a bit"

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Your subject line says it all about that damn suit; I nearly pissed myself when he was in the lift with Hal Sparks. Also, they never did explain how he went from that homemade set of pyjamas to that clearly expensive spandex number; bad writers, no continuity = no biscuit.

[cincodemaygirl.livejournal.com]

DUDE. You and your new fandom really pack a punch. That was GREAT.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I am a one-woman tornado of fandoms. *nods head judiciously* Or you could just say I'm nuts, either one works.

[emmalyne.livejournal.com]

*happy sigh* Poor Harry... he needs love. And all he get is angst. And this is one fabulous angsty fic. Harry has totally reinvented love/hate.

Harry's been dreaming about Peter Parker for years, not quite since they met in high school, but pretty fucking close. Probably since the day that Peter kicked Flash Thompson's ass during lunch.

I love that he doesn't fall for him until after he's Spiderman...

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

*happy sigh* Poor Harry... he needs love. And all he get is angst. And this is one fabulous angsty fic. Harry has totally reinvented love/hate.

Harry/Peter come from a very distinguished background of superheroes/nemises that used to be involved. Batman/Two-Face; Supes/Lex... Good company, definitely.

[crimsonclad.livejournal.com]

Mmmm. The title! And you know, in the lj-cut text, I saw Harry and Peter and thought HP, which still fits with the title. But not with the wanting. Still- funny.

But it hurts, and I might have to go back and watch the first one again, just from this perspective.

Cheap lotion- geez, you're killing me.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

When I was watching the movie, I could totally hear Inigo in the background screaming 'You Kill my father! Prepare to die!'

[transtempts.livejournal.com]

ow.

poor boys, both of them.

doomed, too.

::sigh::

well done.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[special-trille.livejournal.com]

Cheap lotion! Meeep!

I've typed and deleted this about half a dozen times now. I need to be in person so I can flail and babble and not have to articulate through words alone to describe where I was coming from coming into this fic, and where I am now I've read it. I just can't manage to get it across properly.

Pre-This:
Me: La, la, la. Spiderman 2. La, la, la. Harry/Peter! OMG! ANGST! But nothing will come of it. Well, there'll be a lot of trying to kill him, and I know what that means, but there won't be traditional getting-together-slash, only obsessive wanting-but-not-having slash. And that's canon, for me. And I'm happy with that. MJ/Peter, that's my actually-together-and not fucked up OTP. So, canon yay. No need for fic reading for me.

Post-This:
Me: Ok. So, canon works fine. But there can be fics *and* canon for me! Why didn't I see this before?! I can totally read Peter/Harry. MJ be damned! I'll see you in the movies and be happy, but HARRRRRRRY!

Um, you know?

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

You crack me up. I'm sure there's room on the arc for all the pairings, you don't have to start shuffling them around unless you really want to. Also, I'm really pleased that you enjoyed this, thank you for commenting.

[meret.livejournal.com]

This is terrific! Wonderfully angstsy. :)

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Meret!

[fleegull.livejournal.com]

Angsty, sexy, confused - fabulous!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[laurac0re.livejournal.com]

I stumbled upon this through dorrie6 and this is just fabulous!

do you ming if I recced this on harryandpeter? The community just stared up and so far it's been pretty dead. I've been trying to hunt down some good Harry/Peter fics for it :)

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I'm so pleased you enjoyed the story, thank you so much for all your kind words. (And no, I don't mind if you'd like to recc the story at all. Thanks!)

[marksykins.livejournal.com]

Oh, man, I'm so dying the death of slashy goodness. Freakin' wonderful, and just what I've been craving since I saw that movie.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about craving, my brain nearly exploded.

[siriuslyours.livejournal.com]

Are you kidding? Of course it doesn't suck! Actually, is what we all have been expecting since we left the theaters -all over the world- while all the Harry/Peter sex-tension laid unresolved. Read that, Sam Raimi?? UNRESOLVED!!! Dammit! We need pr0n!

Er... right, sorry about that.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Actually, is what we all have been expecting since we left the theaters -all over the world- while all the Harry/Peter sex-tension laid unresolved. Read that, Sam Raimi?? UNRESOLVED!!! Dammit! We need pr0n!

Dude, don't apologize, I was right there with you. I was all "there's slapping and eyefucking and angst, but no porn? I was done wrong!"

[ladyvyola.livejournal.com]

I realize this is an embarrassing thing to have to confess but I... I just licked your fic.

...And I hope you'll hold it against me.

I'm developing an addiction for stories that burn like Maker's Mark.

Scandelous!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I realize this is an embarrassing thing to have to confess but I... I just licked your fic.

...And I hope you'll hold it against me.

I think the story liked it.

[lookatmae.livejournal.com]

Again, Brilliant.

This whole yaoi, and my fascination with it is starting to unnerve me a little, though.

Ace. Again goes into my memories, as the rest of your pieces. Do you do this for a living?

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

This whole yaoi, and my fascination with it is starting to unnerve me a little, though.

It's so rare for me to hear yaoi instead of slash that I'm kind of amused. Am I to understand that you're not actually a slash-reader/writer/artist/fan-thereof? If not, do you mind my asking how you came upon my LJ?

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I tend to be more of a one trick pony as opposed to a sequel person, but I'm sure at some point I'll revisit Spider-Man 2. I'm glad you enjoyed this, thanks for reading!

[obiness.livejournal.com]

wow..that was painful. beatifully painful. thanks

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reading!

[fashes.livejournal.com]

My Name is Inigo Montoya

*fangasms from title*

Now that Harry has what he's always wanted, he's finding it very hard to decide if he's in love or hate.

I can feel Harry's hands on Peter's throat. Finger tips almost caressing - almost.

*thud*

serialkarma was right! This Does Not Suck.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

My Name is Inigo Montoya

*fangasms from title*

I mentioned to someone above that during the entire movie I kept thinking about Inigo during the movie, and then when Harry had the dagger at the end of the movie I was all 'prepare to die!'

[greenapricot.livejournal.com]

I read this yesterday before I'd seen the movie, and now I have and. Having this extra scene in my head during it made it so much the better film. This is just the perfect sort of love/hate and inner conflict.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Did you like the movie? I enjoyed it much more than I'd expect to, I must say.

[penknife.livejournal.com]

I like this a lot, and you're making me like Harry, who was getting on my nerves. Nicely done.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I admit that Harry was a little grating, but he was done wrong by his Peter, you have to appreciate that he thought Spider-Man was taking his man away.

[ghost_lingering]

This is perfectly and exactly what the movie was missing, because Peter did betray Harry (in that lying superhero way all superheros have) and Harry did seem pretty messed up and Peter didn't ever come back after saving the world and MJ and jazz. And I love the title. Thanks for posting!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

in that lying superhero way all superheros have)

That's such a perfect way to describe it. That Goddamn Holier-than-thou-just-cos-I-have-superpowers-I-can-lie-and-it's-okay way. Bastards.

[flrouk.livejournal.com]

<3

This is perfect. I feel for Harry.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Yes, sympathy for the Devil Harry!