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hackthis." And torchthisnow is going, "You can't claim him. He’s mine.” And I’m all "Do you have a flag? -– No flag, no character!” - I bastardize Eddie Izzard in the name of [O.C. spoiler here]
The O.C.
Seth/[new character]/Ryan
(spoilers for 2:2 - The Way We Were)
I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man
This was going to end badly before it even began –- Ryan knew that. He and Seth and Summer and Zach and Marissa and DJ and Anna and Luke and everyone involved -– all they ever seemed to do was hurt each other –- but they also brought he and Seth closer together in a weird, bonding way. Plus, Ryan always looked out for everyone else. He always did what everyone else wanted, and just once he wanted this.
If he couldn’t have Seth, then at least he could have this.
*
Ryan went to Portland for Seth -- more specifically, he went to Portland to get Seth back from Luke.
It wasn’t that Luke wanted Seth –- Luke had actually tracked Ryan down, with a little help from Sandy, and told Ryan that he didn’t really care that Cohen was queer, but he did care that Seth was always calling Luke by the wrong name, and if Ryan ever wanted Seth back -- well, Luke would just keep him in protective custody until Ryan could come and get him. Which was fine with Ryan because he was always going to come and get Seth one day, because that was how things were supposed to be.
Seth and Ryan. Ryan and Seth.
Enough said.
*
Ryan was never going to leave Portland without Seth. That was never an option. And leaving Seth again wasn’t really an option either. It wasn’t something they talked about –- it was actually something they very much didn’t talk about, but it was obvious in the way that everything between them was obvious. They didn’t have to say anything for everything to be said.
It was called subtext for a reason -- it wasn’t supposed to get out of hand.
*
Ryan loves the Cohens. It’s not the sort of thing that’s declared on a regular basis, but again, the subtext is there. He would never betray their trust by sleeping with their son under their roof. Or even in their guesthouse. So instead he looks and Seth looks back, and they go on about their business of making a mess of their lives by fucking other people, when they really should just get together and be done with it. But that would be too easy, and between the easy way and the hard way, the hard way is the only one that Ryan knows.
*
There was never room for anybody else in the Seth and Ryan equation. Summer and Marissa were just footnotes at the end of an impossibly long equation that would eventually be solved by moving or college or by something else in the long run.
There was never any room for anyone like Zach. There still isn’t. And this is a problem for everyone involved.
Whether or not Zach is a good or a bad thing has yet to be determined, but Ryan has to admit that the dynamic has changed. Zach is not Seth and Seth is not Zach. They are alike, but they’re different -- like the positive ends of two batteries that according to science, shouldn’t be attracted to each other -- but they are. The only thing worse is that not only do they go together, but Ryan can feel himself being pulled in both directions at once. At first Ryan was jealous -– now he’s just worried. He’s always wanted Seth, he shouldn’t want Zach too -- but he does.
*
This is going to end badly before it’s even begun –- Ryan knows that. Between the yelling and the brooding and the sulking –- and that’s just because Summer won’t take Seth back -- Ryan knows that this is all going to end badly.
The last time they tried to end it, Ryan left Seth and Seth left Ryan, and Ryan hadn’t even wanted Marissa or Theresa, but he’d wanted the baby. He’d wanted the baby so much, it would’ve been chance to get things right, and finally there would’ve been someone who loved him unconditionally and not because they thought he was the only person who would ever love them for the way they were.
But then he’d lost the baby -- they had lost the baby -- and that was such a bad ending, how much worse could things really get? It was almost as though Ryan had betrayed Theresa and the baby just by thinking of being with Seth, and after that was there really anything else left that could be taken away?
Probably not.
So Ryan does the only thing that makes sense anymore –- he kisses Zach back.
-end-
Read-through byserialkarma. Title from the song by His Royal Purpleness, Prince.
ETN: Also, people, look below,torchthisnow has a flag! I need a flag! Help me save my country!
Also, dude, how much do you hate sitting next to someone with the wide-spread thighs thing, OMG! I hate that so much! Word to everythingspasticat says!
hackthis." And torchthisnow is going, "You can't claim him. He’s mine.” And I’m all "Do you have a flag? -– No flag, no character!” - I bastardize Eddie Izzard in the name of [O.C. spoiler here]The O.C.
Seth/[new character]/Ryan
(spoilers for 2:2 - The Way We Were)
I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man
This was going to end badly before it even began –- Ryan knew that. He and Seth and Summer and Zach and Marissa and DJ and Anna and Luke and everyone involved -– all they ever seemed to do was hurt each other –- but they also brought he and Seth closer together in a weird, bonding way. Plus, Ryan always looked out for everyone else. He always did what everyone else wanted, and just once he wanted this.
If he couldn’t have Seth, then at least he could have this.
Ryan went to Portland for Seth -- more specifically, he went to Portland to get Seth back from Luke.
It wasn’t that Luke wanted Seth –- Luke had actually tracked Ryan down, with a little help from Sandy, and told Ryan that he didn’t really care that Cohen was queer, but he did care that Seth was always calling Luke by the wrong name, and if Ryan ever wanted Seth back -- well, Luke would just keep him in protective custody until Ryan could come and get him. Which was fine with Ryan because he was always going to come and get Seth one day, because that was how things were supposed to be.
Seth and Ryan. Ryan and Seth.
Enough said.
Ryan was never going to leave Portland without Seth. That was never an option. And leaving Seth again wasn’t really an option either. It wasn’t something they talked about –- it was actually something they very much didn’t talk about, but it was obvious in the way that everything between them was obvious. They didn’t have to say anything for everything to be said.
It was called subtext for a reason -- it wasn’t supposed to get out of hand.
Ryan loves the Cohens. It’s not the sort of thing that’s declared on a regular basis, but again, the subtext is there. He would never betray their trust by sleeping with their son under their roof. Or even in their guesthouse. So instead he looks and Seth looks back, and they go on about their business of making a mess of their lives by fucking other people, when they really should just get together and be done with it. But that would be too easy, and between the easy way and the hard way, the hard way is the only one that Ryan knows.
There was never room for anybody else in the Seth and Ryan equation. Summer and Marissa were just footnotes at the end of an impossibly long equation that would eventually be solved by moving or college or by something else in the long run.
There was never any room for anyone like Zach. There still isn’t. And this is a problem for everyone involved.
Whether or not Zach is a good or a bad thing has yet to be determined, but Ryan has to admit that the dynamic has changed. Zach is not Seth and Seth is not Zach. They are alike, but they’re different -- like the positive ends of two batteries that according to science, shouldn’t be attracted to each other -- but they are. The only thing worse is that not only do they go together, but Ryan can feel himself being pulled in both directions at once. At first Ryan was jealous -– now he’s just worried. He’s always wanted Seth, he shouldn’t want Zach too -- but he does.
This is going to end badly before it’s even begun –- Ryan knows that. Between the yelling and the brooding and the sulking –- and that’s just because Summer won’t take Seth back -- Ryan knows that this is all going to end badly.
The last time they tried to end it, Ryan left Seth and Seth left Ryan, and Ryan hadn’t even wanted Marissa or Theresa, but he’d wanted the baby. He’d wanted the baby so much, it would’ve been chance to get things right, and finally there would’ve been someone who loved him unconditionally and not because they thought he was the only person who would ever love them for the way they were.
But then he’d lost the baby -- they had lost the baby -- and that was such a bad ending, how much worse could things really get? It was almost as though Ryan had betrayed Theresa and the baby just by thinking of being with Seth, and after that was there really anything else left that could be taken away?
Probably not.
So Ryan does the only thing that makes sense anymore –- he kisses Zach back.
-end-
Read-through by
serialkarma. Title from the song by His Royal Purpleness, Prince. ETN: Also, people, look below,
torchthisnow has a flag! I need a flag! Help me save my country! Also, dude, how much do you hate sitting next to someone with the wide-spread thighs thing, OMG! I hate that so much! Word to everything
spasticat says!
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Date: 2004-11-12 11:32 am (UTC)He’d wanted the baby so much, it would’ve been chance to get things right, and finally there would’ve been someone who loved him unconditionally and not because they thought he the only person who would ever love them for the way they were.
Ooooooooh. I just really, really want to give Ryan a gigantic hug. And some hot chocolate.
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Date: 2004-11-12 01:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 11:33 am (UTC)FINE. I don't have a flag, but I WILL. And tonight, I was going to buckle down and write a nice fun Ryan/Seth reunion blowjob, but NOW...well, okay, I'm still totally going to write it, but I might just, like, lock you out of it or something!!!!
BECAUSE ZACH IS MINE. Or at least, he's mine on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Fridays - except not the morning, Saturdays, and Sunday mornings.
Now that that's out of the way.
I heart this.
Ryan hadn’t even wanted Marissa or Theresa, but he’d wanted the baby. He’d wanted the baby so much, it would’ve been chance to get things right, and finally there would’ve been someone who loved him unconditionally and not because they thought he the only person who would ever love them for the way they were.
SO RYAN. And god. My heart. I need a bandaid for it.
And it's so going to play out like this. Ryan's going to be all, "I don't want you, I want Seth...but I can't have Seth and GOD I want you." And I can't wait. Yes.
And I'll get my flag, woman. You WAIT.
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Date: 2004-11-12 11:54 am (UTC)He's all yours, baby. I know it and you know it and we'll just show that mean old
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Date: 2004-11-12 01:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 01:41 pm (UTC)::hands plaster::
I have decided that Ryan is now King of the Woobies. (Now, there's an icon for you. Almost as good as Hurley's Jedi-crush and Sawyer's Commie sharefest in cavetown).
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Date: 2004-11-12 11:36 am (UTC)aw, yes. i *just* finished watching the episode, so i'm still kinda floating in that oh-so-gay space right now. this is just icing.
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Date: 2004-11-12 01:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 11:40 am (UTC)MY FAVORITE PART. Such a good...reasoning? For the season. A reason for the season if you will.
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Date: 2004-11-12 12:30 pm (UTC)It was called subtext for a reason -- it wasn’t supposed to get out of hand.
And the bit about the baby? Melted my heart.
I really, really adore this piece.
I fangirl you SO HARD.
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Date: 2004-11-12 01:46 pm (UTC)Absolutely. I have to say it feels good to have fresh source material again.
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Date: 2004-11-12 11:55 am (UTC):: clings to O.C. fic ::
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Date: 2004-11-12 01:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 02:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 11:56 am (UTC)Okay, maybe that one a little.
Which was fine with Ryan, because he was always going to come and get Seth one day, because that was how things were supposed to be.
Seth and Ryan. Ryan and Seth.
Enough said.
Exactly.
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Date: 2004-11-12 02:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 12:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 12:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 01:02 pm (UTC)Okay. Regrouping. New plan.
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Date: 2004-11-12 12:12 pm (UTC)I imagine myself as a blowfish, large and spiny, with big popping eyes that glare wrath like nobody's business.
They move, every time.
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Date: 2004-11-12 02:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 12:16 pm (UTC)Everything I love about this can be summed up in one quotation:
It was called subtext for a reason -- it wasn’t supposed to get out of hand.
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Date: 2004-11-12 02:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 12:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 01:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 01:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 02:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 02:47 pm (UTC)*loves new flag*
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Date: 2004-11-13 10:57 am (UTC)I thought your icon said "Flame On"
;)
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Date: 2004-11-13 02:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 12:55 pm (UTC)Giddy as a fangirlly squeeing fangirl, that's how happy!
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Date: 2004-11-12 02:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 02:43 pm (UTC)*worships at your feet*
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Date: 2004-11-12 02:32 pm (UTC)Also, that new icon is a go.
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Date: 2004-11-12 02:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 03:12 pm (UTC)Bless. Bless! ...with a side-order of bless. So true.
...and between the easy way and the hard way, the hard way is the only one that Ryan knows.
Aww, Ryan's just the biggest screwed-up woobie that ever did woobie!
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Date: 2004-11-15 09:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 03:24 pm (UTC)Love that line, it rings so true about Ryan. Loved the drabble too.
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Date: 2004-11-15 09:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 08:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-15 09:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-12 08:13 pm (UTC)Yet, he goes for it. And I can't really blame him. I like the way you wrote this, the honesty of Ryan's feelings. And the baby! Poor Ryan.
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Date: 2004-11-15 09:43 am (UTC)Poor baby.
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Date: 2004-11-12 10:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-15 09:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-15 09:47 am (UTC)You're very kind :)