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Boone/Jack; Boone/Sawyer
The Substitute
1.
Being gay isn't something Boone thinks about every second of every day. Maybe every other second of every day, but probably not even that much anymore. He's had a while to get used to the idea -- four years of college and two of high school -- and it's just something else he is now -- like a lifeguard or Shannon's brother or an environmentalist.
So after the crash, his first thought wasn't 'Oh, crap, I'm the only gay guy here' -- it was more along the lines of 'What do you mean I don't know how to do CPR right?'
2.
He decides on their second day on the island that Jack is the one he wants. He's not necessarily -- or most likely -- what Boone will get, but he's the one that Boone wants. Boone can't compete with Kate's breasts or his sister's unerring ability to get everything she wants, but he's a good guy and he's not too hard on the eyes. Maybe the island will be a bonding experience and after they're rescued, they'll become friends and the experience will becoming their thing.
Maybe one night they'll get together to reminisce and hang out, and Jack will drunkenly kiss Boone and say how great he is. Maybe Jack's hands will fumble with Boone's jeans and he'll stop to stroke Boone's face. Maybe Jack will let Boone touch him. Boone's been on the receiving end of enough drunken gropes -- he's certainly given his fair share too -- so who knows. And if they're trapped long enough maybe Jack will want to try something new.
The straight thing has to grow boring after a while.
They would have to be trapped a really long time, but who knows? Still, it's not like Boone wants to get with Charlie or Hurley or Locke -- and he definitely doesn't want to get with Mr Bad-Attitude Sawyer. So Boone goes back to inconspicuously gathering pens in the wreckage, because you never know when Jack might need to perform another tracheotomy.
3.
Boone can be patient. Sometimes. If he tries really hard. He just has to wait. It's not as though he's really spoiling for selection. Anyway, Jack isn't just Boone's type -- he's everyone's type. He's smart, and he's a doctor, and he's tall and he has a really nice body. Boone always seems to be on the beach when Jack is swimming or giving orders or doing any sort of leadership stuff, because Boone used to run his own business -- the summer of sixth grade he had a great lawn-mowing business and he made $1000 that summer -- and he can help.
All Boone wants to do is help.
He gets really pissed off when Jack won't let him help.
4.
Who ever heard of a lifeguard that can't swim? Boone can't believe he had to be rescued. He was so disgusted with himself that he wishes Jack had just left him to drown -- but another part of him keeps focusing on the part with Jack holding him really tightly against his shirtless chest and how good it felt to be held. Boone's sense of pride loses out to his libido every time -- and when he jerks off in the forest, hidden away less than 20 feet from camp, he thinks about how good Jack felt.
5.
He almost loses his mind when Jack gets trapped in that cave, but unlike Kate, he has to keep himself together. It would never do for the only gay guy on the island to freak out over the straight guy who only pats him on the back and never listens to what he has to say.
6.
Boone picked up Watership Down at a used bookstore in Sydney. He was looking for something else, something Sci-Fi or Fantasy, maybe something by Tolkein because he was really into his environment -- but the bookshop didn't have a lot of selection and it was either Watership Down or a history of the Aborigines. Shannon was off shopping somewhere without him because they'd had yet another fight about her asthma medicine, and he bought both books for himself and not because he thought she might actually be interested in either one.
He put the history book in the side zipper of his luggage, and now, he can't find it. The zipper was open after the crash, and maybe Sawyer has that too, but Boone doesn't want to ask, because look at what happened when he tried to get Shannon's medicine.
Boone doesn't want to have any more interaction with Sawyer than he has to -- and he's really angry that Jack and Sayid punished Sawyer without him. At least he thinks it's anger.
It's not like Jack did it for him.
But he can pretend.
7.
Shannon laughs at him every time she catches him staring at Jack -- which happens a lot -- and he scowls and tells her to mind her own business. At least he doesn't make fun of her when he catches her smiling at Sun all the time.
8.
He wants his book back, and this is why he goes to the beach to see Sawyer. It's not because Sawyer's apparently really hurt and Sayid's run off and Kate's sad and Jack's brooding because Kate's missing Sayid -- it's just because Boone wants his book back.
He's not prepared for a saucy, shirtless Sawyer, with his book propped open on his chest. It's a nice chest -- it's not just the gay thing -- and Boone tries not to feel guilty, but he kind of can't help it. Plus, Jack's so good at everything and he's always obsessing over Kate. He makes Boone feel inferior, and at least Sawyer doesn't ignore him. At least when Boone shifts from foot-to-foot in the sand, Sawyer puts down the book and acknowledges him.
Boone's not really expecting to get his book back when he asks, but maybe he can get something else instead.
After all, they're all trapped on this island together and people have to get along. It's not about what people want anymore, it's about what they can get.
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Date: 2004-11-14 11:16 am (UTC)This is the meanest thing ever and I love you for it.
I also love you for the effortless way you always come back to your stated theme at the end, but it's the getting there that's so delicious.
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Date: 2004-11-15 09:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-14 11:27 am (UTC)Meep! You really captured Boone's sense of longing in a really poignant way while retaining a sense of humour.
Shannon laughs at him every time she catches him staring at Jack -- which happens a lot -- and he scowls and tells her to mind her own business. At least he doesn't make fun of her when he catches her smiling at Sun all the time.
Hee! I'm glad I'm not the only one who saw Shannon/Sun. ;)
This was excellent - any chance we'll get to hear more about Boone/Sawyer?
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Date: 2004-11-15 09:57 am (UTC)This was excellent - any chance we'll get to hear more about Boone/Sawyer?
The Shannon/Sun was practically anvillian (neologism!). Seriously, Shannon was practically glowing from all the Sun attention. Oh, I can see the bad quips now -- 'Basking in the Glow of the Sun'
*snerk*
Also, yes, I can see there being more Boone/Sawyer, since Jack is straighter than like, Hugh Hefner. He needs more fairydust.
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Date: 2004-11-15 02:13 pm (UTC)HAHAHA.
Also, yes, I can see there being more Boone/Sawyer, since Jack is straighter than like, Hugh Hefner. He needs more fairydust.
You know, I don't know if it's so much that Jack is straight, or if he just lacks a libido. But yes, he could always use more fairydust. :)
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Date: 2004-11-14 12:21 pm (UTC)HAHAHAA lawns.
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Date: 2004-11-14 12:29 pm (UTC)I love the way you write, you don't rush anything so it just kinda flows to the conclusion. You Rock!
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Date: 2004-11-15 10:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-14 01:04 pm (UTC)Anyway, I'm done rambling. Thank you so much for writing this. XD
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Date: 2004-11-14 03:38 pm (UTC)*snerk* There are no words.
Watership Down reference (even if only in passing): yay!
The last paragraph was perfect. Nicely done!
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Date: 2004-11-15 10:20 am (UTC)Sweet! Does the apple pie come with vanilla ice cream?
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Date: 2004-11-15 08:24 am (UTC)I'd love to know what happens later :)
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Date: 2004-11-17 08:12 am (UTC)Awww confused Boone!
::pets Boone::
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Date: 2004-11-18 12:49 pm (UTC)Boone's not really expecting to get his book back when he asks, but maybe he can get something else instead.
After all, they're all trapped on this island together and people have to get along. It's not about what people want anymore, it's about what they can get.
That was just wonderful. Would you be completely frightened if I friended you?
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Date: 2004-11-22 12:48 pm (UTC)I am late, again, because I am one with Teh Suck. But I do adore this, and you, and I'm so very happy you're writing Lostfic.
*dances around*
Yay.
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Date: 2005-01-04 05:42 pm (UTC)Boone picked up Watership Down at a used bookstore in Sydney.
I swear I have a crossover Boone!fic that starts off this exact same way.
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Date: 2005-04-02 07:21 pm (UTC)That was completely lovely! So funny and adorable I want to pet and hug Boone.
::adores madly::
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