Shits and giggles and random OC fic.
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serialkarma has dubbed the latest craze The Emo Boy Fandom ™. I laughed. She's not wrong though. I think pretty much everyone is onboard with this, no?
2.zeplum wrote Oliver/Charlie, which is one of those secondary pairings that if I were a Gryffindor I would really really love. What really had me thinking though was how much everyone (including me) is loving this voyeurism thing. I think somebody struck gold with this kink.
3. It has come to my attention that there are people in the universe who think that the House theme is just a fucking theme. People that is Teardrop by Massive Attack. That is a classic song! It's fucking legendary Bristol trip-hop from the mid-90s, along with Portishead and Morcheeba. It's the only fucking reason I gave the show a shot in the first place. Disgraceful.
I was all set to write some Star Wars RPS today, I confess, but then my girl was all, 'write me some O.C.' to which I said something along the lines of 'are you high?' Yeah, no. I have totally disowned that entire fandom. I spit on Josh when I pass him in the street. I have no OC icons left. We hateses trickseyethrosdemon, but we really hate whomever linked to that picture in bexless's list and said 'Oh, look, Ryan and Seth!'
The O.C.
Ryan/Seth
Spoilers for Season Finale
Crawling with Idiot
There's something broken inside Seth right now. He's not sure how to fix it, but he knows that it's pretty much been irreparably fucked, like the time he kept forcing He-Man's arms onto Man-At-Arms body, until he just couldn't put He-Man back together again.
This is like that.
Now would be an excellent time for a Keebler Elf, or hey, even Seth's own superhero, Super Fix-It Man, to magically appear and save the day. Except that Seth's always thought of Ryan as his own personal superhero, and all the wishing isn't doing anything, because Seth's still white-knuckling the steering wheel, and Ryan's still staring out the window beside him.
There's this weird noise coming from the Range Rover's dashboard that might be music, but Seth's so broken that he can't even arrange the words into something like sense.
He totally has to get a grip.
His father trusted him to get Ryan home, because he had to stay at the station with Marissa, because of the whole murdering-Trey thing, and, uh, yeah. Now is not a good time for Seth to be thinking about murders and blood, and Ryan lying of the floor of Alex's apartment looking pretty dead and stiff himself –- but it’s almost like he can't see anything else. And if Ryan doesn't even notice that Seth almost drove over the center line, then they are really in trouble now.
This is what happens when they don't stick together.
People get shot.
The dials on the dash are really bright in the dark interior of the car, and in Seth's periphery the bruises around Ryan's neck look like purple and red fingerpaint.
That's really disturbing.
Seth has built his entire life around knowing what to say. He may not say it at the right time, or in the right way. His timing has been known to suck spectacular ass on pretty much every occasion; and okay, this year he's been more tactless than pretty much everybody else combined, but, he still likes to think that when it's really important he can say what needs to said.
He told Summer how he felt, even when he was hanging from the roof in his Spider-Man mask after almost having killed himself, and that was really traumatic. He could've gone splat all over everything and then he never would've gotten to meet George Lucas. Neck waddle and all.
And he was there for his mom when it came down to it. Okay, he hid in his room for a lot of the time, but eventually, he did what had to be done. He told her that she needed to go to rehab, and that was really fucking hard, because what he really wanted to say was, 'Please don't leave me here by myself. I can't do this without you and Dad and Ryan and Captain Oats.'
What Seth really wanted to say was 'Moooooooooooooooooooooooooom!'
But he didn't.
Seth's spent his entire life using words to hide his insecurities and lack of smoothness and all that nebbish stuff that comes so naturally from being a Cohen and being himself. Sometimes he feels like he's practically got idiot scrawled all over him, seeping out his pores and staining his skin, and he talks to make up for all the things he feels but really doesn't know how to just say.
Seth's big secret is that he may talk a lot, but he actually says very little. He thinks that it would be nice if he were more like Ryan, and could just say what was important and relevant when it needed to be said.
Maybe his life would be better if he were less like himself, but he's just him, and he talks to much, and he should be talking right now.
But he just doesn't know what to say.
It's a lot easier for Seth to pull the car over to the shoulder and throw it into park, than it is for him to tell himself that he knows what he's doing. Because, surprise surprise, Seth has no fucking clue what to do, or what to say, and he doesn't even know how to get Ryan to look at him. Except -- maybe he's the one who can't meet Ryan's eyes, because what the hell did he think was going to happen when he told Ryan about Marissa and Trey?
Did he really fucking think that Ryan was just going to say, 'Huh, that's too bad?'
Yeah, no, probably not.
And the thing is, Seth has no business pulling Ryan across the armrest and trying to kiss him. It's a given that their mouths aren't going to meet on the first try or the second try, and really, it's a wonder that Ryan doesn't hit Seth in the head.
Seth is just doing this all wrong, and maybe he's had lots of dreams about kissing Ryan in the guesthouse or in the backseat, but this desperate grappling in his dreams is nothing like kissing Ryan's limp mouth right now. And Seth's just trying to make it better -– he's just trying to fix Ryan the best he can.
The gripping of Ryan's hair and the patting of his shirt to smooth out the wrinkles and the dried blood is Seth's way of playing superhero the only way he can. He's trying to make it better. He's trying to show that he gives a damn.
Now is not the time or the place for Seth to be making a move on Ryan, but he doesn't know what else to do or how else to tell Ryan that he's so very, very sorry.
Yes, he is an idiot who talks too much and keeps fucking up everybody else's lives, but sometimes even Seth knows that what you do is way more important than the lip-service you give.
He just hopes that Ryan understands that what he's feeling can't ever be put into words.
-end-
Title from the song by Elbow.
Unbetad as everyone is on holiday.
serialkarma has dubbed the latest craze The Emo Boy Fandom ™. I laughed. She's not wrong though. I think pretty much everyone is onboard with this, no?2.
zeplum wrote Oliver/Charlie, which is one of those secondary pairings that if I were a Gryffindor I would really really love. What really had me thinking though was how much everyone (including me) is loving this voyeurism thing. I think somebody struck gold with this kink.3. It has come to my attention that there are people in the universe who think that the House theme is just a fucking theme. People that is Teardrop by Massive Attack. That is a classic song! It's fucking legendary Bristol trip-hop from the mid-90s, along with Portishead and Morcheeba. It's the only fucking reason I gave the show a shot in the first place. Disgraceful.
I was all set to write some Star Wars RPS today, I confess, but then my girl was all, 'write me some O.C.' to which I said something along the lines of 'are you high?' Yeah, no. I have totally disowned that entire fandom. I spit on Josh when I pass him in the street. I have no OC icons left. We hateses tricksey
ethrosdemon, but we really hate whomever linked to that picture in bexless's list and said 'Oh, look, Ryan and Seth!'The O.C.
Ryan/Seth
Spoilers for Season Finale
Crawling with Idiot
There's something broken inside Seth right now. He's not sure how to fix it, but he knows that it's pretty much been irreparably fucked, like the time he kept forcing He-Man's arms onto Man-At-Arms body, until he just couldn't put He-Man back together again.
This is like that.
Now would be an excellent time for a Keebler Elf, or hey, even Seth's own superhero, Super Fix-It Man, to magically appear and save the day. Except that Seth's always thought of Ryan as his own personal superhero, and all the wishing isn't doing anything, because Seth's still white-knuckling the steering wheel, and Ryan's still staring out the window beside him.
There's this weird noise coming from the Range Rover's dashboard that might be music, but Seth's so broken that he can't even arrange the words into something like sense.
He totally has to get a grip.
His father trusted him to get Ryan home, because he had to stay at the station with Marissa, because of the whole murdering-Trey thing, and, uh, yeah. Now is not a good time for Seth to be thinking about murders and blood, and Ryan lying of the floor of Alex's apartment looking pretty dead and stiff himself –- but it’s almost like he can't see anything else. And if Ryan doesn't even notice that Seth almost drove over the center line, then they are really in trouble now.
This is what happens when they don't stick together.
People get shot.
The dials on the dash are really bright in the dark interior of the car, and in Seth's periphery the bruises around Ryan's neck look like purple and red fingerpaint.
That's really disturbing.
Seth has built his entire life around knowing what to say. He may not say it at the right time, or in the right way. His timing has been known to suck spectacular ass on pretty much every occasion; and okay, this year he's been more tactless than pretty much everybody else combined, but, he still likes to think that when it's really important he can say what needs to said.
He told Summer how he felt, even when he was hanging from the roof in his Spider-Man mask after almost having killed himself, and that was really traumatic. He could've gone splat all over everything and then he never would've gotten to meet George Lucas. Neck waddle and all.
And he was there for his mom when it came down to it. Okay, he hid in his room for a lot of the time, but eventually, he did what had to be done. He told her that she needed to go to rehab, and that was really fucking hard, because what he really wanted to say was, 'Please don't leave me here by myself. I can't do this without you and Dad and Ryan and Captain Oats.'
What Seth really wanted to say was 'Moooooooooooooooooooooooooom!'
But he didn't.
Seth's spent his entire life using words to hide his insecurities and lack of smoothness and all that nebbish stuff that comes so naturally from being a Cohen and being himself. Sometimes he feels like he's practically got idiot scrawled all over him, seeping out his pores and staining his skin, and he talks to make up for all the things he feels but really doesn't know how to just say.
Seth's big secret is that he may talk a lot, but he actually says very little. He thinks that it would be nice if he were more like Ryan, and could just say what was important and relevant when it needed to be said.
Maybe his life would be better if he were less like himself, but he's just him, and he talks to much, and he should be talking right now.
But he just doesn't know what to say.
It's a lot easier for Seth to pull the car over to the shoulder and throw it into park, than it is for him to tell himself that he knows what he's doing. Because, surprise surprise, Seth has no fucking clue what to do, or what to say, and he doesn't even know how to get Ryan to look at him. Except -- maybe he's the one who can't meet Ryan's eyes, because what the hell did he think was going to happen when he told Ryan about Marissa and Trey?
Did he really fucking think that Ryan was just going to say, 'Huh, that's too bad?'
Yeah, no, probably not.
And the thing is, Seth has no business pulling Ryan across the armrest and trying to kiss him. It's a given that their mouths aren't going to meet on the first try or the second try, and really, it's a wonder that Ryan doesn't hit Seth in the head.
Seth is just doing this all wrong, and maybe he's had lots of dreams about kissing Ryan in the guesthouse or in the backseat, but this desperate grappling in his dreams is nothing like kissing Ryan's limp mouth right now. And Seth's just trying to make it better -– he's just trying to fix Ryan the best he can.
The gripping of Ryan's hair and the patting of his shirt to smooth out the wrinkles and the dried blood is Seth's way of playing superhero the only way he can. He's trying to make it better. He's trying to show that he gives a damn.
Now is not the time or the place for Seth to be making a move on Ryan, but he doesn't know what else to do or how else to tell Ryan that he's so very, very sorry.
Yes, he is an idiot who talks too much and keeps fucking up everybody else's lives, but sometimes even Seth knows that what you do is way more important than the lip-service you give.
He just hopes that Ryan understands that what he's feeling can't ever be put into words.
-end-
Title from the song by Elbow.
Unbetad as everyone is on holiday.
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Date: 2005-05-27 06:29 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2005-05-27 06:30 pm (UTC)Dude. WOW.
*giggles*
This is really good, and I too, wanted to hit Seth in the face with a BRICK all season. But I loved this:
Sometimes he feels like he's practically got idiot scrawled all over him, seeping out his pores and staining his skin, and he talks to make up for all the things he feels but really doesn't know how to just say.
Seth's big secret is that he may talk a lot, but he actually says very little
And the kissing and the driving and the - well, the OMG IS IT THE APOCALYPSE??? SHE WROTE A NEW OC FIC!! - of it all just had me grinning OMG THIS BIG.
(Also, the EMO Boy Fandom is a totally right and vaild thing. And I am FIRMLY on board with it. All of it. In case there's like, a sign up list *g*)
*hugs*
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Date: 2005-05-27 06:56 pm (UTC)Sweetie, you do know that back in the day (before I knew you, which really was a while ago), The O.C. used to be my fandom? Drabbles, fics, my very first novel too (Telegraph Avenue) (http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=hackthis). It's not quite as strange as it sounds -- but it's close. Also, apparently there *is* sign-up for the emo boy fandom, or at least to write a story for it. At least that's what I heard
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Date: 2005-05-27 06:35 pm (UTC)2. And so I was thinking that you should pretend like S2 didn't happen, right? Like I said before. Look, I wrote a story set in the middle of S1. You can also do this. Because:
like the time he kept forcing He-Man's arms onto Man-At-Arms body, until he just couldn't put He-Man back together again.
You and Seth? No need to get into that, but I got your number.
This is what happens when they don't stick together.
People get shot.
Again, I say, do not front on this shit.
Seth has built his entire life around knowing what to say. He may not say it at the right time, or in the right way.
You own him.
What Seth really wanted to say was 'Moooooooooooooooooooooooooom!'
My grinch heart grew one size bigger.
Oddly enough, I think this works in a way that most of the corny-ass slash about them doesn't. Because, this? Is Seth. He's this exact person, and he's just that maladroit. And Ryan? He loves him too much to hit him.
You're my girl.
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Date: 2005-05-27 07:00 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2005-05-27 06:44 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2005-05-27 07:31 pm (UTC)Whatever. He kinda lost me to a PAX show. *cries* But one with crossdressing so that makes it slightly better.
Oh, and Charlie/Oliver is so my secondary pairing (or my first, it's hard to order things in HP) even though I'm not all Ra Ra Gryffindor! It's all about the manly Quidditch sweat with them, and the manic fumbling. And why am I trying to explain this? Oh, right, I'm trying to hide from the Indonesians.
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Date: 2005-05-27 07:34 pm (UTC)Also, I am totally with you on the Massive Attack thing. People who are not familiar with that song, and that group should have their cool credits striped until they catch up. :)
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Date: 2005-05-31 08:39 pm (UTC)Yeah, that makes two of us! I was pretty shocked as well. Also, I completely agree about the Massive Attack this ;)
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Date: 2005-05-27 07:35 pm (UTC)okay, take away my human card because:
1. I thought the House theme music was just..yaknow.. theme music. But dude, Morcheeba, MA and Portishead? That's like, the groove triumverate or something.
2. I'd been watching the OC almost regularly this season, but ignoring any fic, because I didn't want to be disappointed by the diff in the show voice and writing voice. This was the first i've ever read (namely 'coz you wrote it) and I'm amazed how you nailed Seth. (heh, I said nailed seth) But, of course, now I won't be able to venture outside your stash. *scrambles off to read*
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Date: 2005-05-31 08:40 pm (UTC)2. I have not done much of the watching or the read, I've seen maybe 30% of the season and then only when people call and demand I watch the horror. It really is a horror to me right now.
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Date: 2005-05-31 08:44 pm (UTC)No shit. I must go hide under the desk now.
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Date: 2005-05-27 08:17 pm (UTC)Now I've read this story and I think I've been spoiled for something very big. Oops.
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Date: 2005-05-27 09:44 pm (UTC)So imagine my shock and horror when I walk in on my roomate watching it! I'm pretty sure I gasped and fled :)
Anyway, I love your Seth, he's funny and real... and your fic is teh good!
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Date: 2005-05-27 09:55 pm (UTC)I tried to watch The O.C. back in the day, because those guys on it are unspeakably hot. The characters just didn't hold my attention, though, and the scenery only made me want to go outside.
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Date: 2005-05-31 08:52 pm (UTC)Because you are watching Grey's Anatomy instead. Right?
the scenery only made me want to go outside.
You are priceless. *adores*
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Date: 2005-05-27 11:42 pm (UTC)But yes, it was a lovely, angsty little thing thing, and I thought you had Seth down very well.
And I have to thank you for indirectly leading me to
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Date: 2005-05-27 11:55 pm (UTC)But this was good. This was SETH, the REAL Seth, not this enormous, entiled ass that's been on my TV practically all season.
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Date: 2005-05-31 08:53 pm (UTC)Yeah, he's been fucking up my TV all year too.
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Date: 2005-05-28 02:41 am (UTC)And yay for good season 2 OC fic. After this season, we need it. :)
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Date: 2005-05-31 09:00 pm (UTC)75% for me. When they played my favourite Stones song *ever* at the end of the finale, I was like, 'hell, yes!'
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Date: 2005-05-28 04:32 am (UTC)This was amazing, and I miss your fabulous sense of language and mood in O.C. Fic. Did you actually go back and watch the relevant eps, or did someone just fill you in?
The dials on the dash are really bright in the dark interior of the car, and in Seth's periphery the bruises around Ryan's neck look like purple and red fingerpaint.
Such a great, vivid image.
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Date: 2005-05-31 09:05 pm (UTC)You guys are fantastic. The show? Pffft.
Did you actually go back and watch the relevant eps, or did someone just fill you in?
I've watched about 30% of this season. A few episodes at the start and a few at the end, when my friends order me to watch. Generally though, if I turn it on, I walk away within three minutes out of disgust and disinterest. Apparently I missed the whole middle of the season. I'm not bothered.
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Date: 2005-05-28 08:31 am (UTC)This is the type of angst that just *nails* Seth. And it's brilliant.
This is what happens when they don't stick together.
People get shot.
I really loved you using that.
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Date: 2005-05-31 09:11 pm (UTC)This is what happens when they don't stick together.
People get shot.
I really loved you using that.
It just popped up in my head as I was typing and I was like, 'man, back in the day this show was all right...'
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Date: 2005-06-01 05:14 pm (UTC)And he was there for his mom when it came down to it. Okay, he hid in his room for a lot of the time, but eventually, he did what had to be done. He told her that she needed to go to rehab, and that was really fucking hard, because what he really wanted to say was, 'Please don't leave me here by myself. I can't do this without you and Dad and Ryan and Captain Oats.'
What Seth really wanted to say was 'Moooooooooooooooooooooooooom!'
Yes! That's exactly what he was doing in this scene, and it's why that scene broke me into little tiny pieces, even though I absolutely hated the way they handled most of that storyline.
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Date: 2005-06-01 05:22 pm (UTC)It occured to me that if you and K hadn't hounded me to watch the show that I'd've never seen anything past the second episode of the season and would've been okay with that. Josh is so fired. And blacklisted.
*is appalled, twice over*
Date: 2005-06-04 02:11 pm (UTC)*is appalled* There isn't really? We're not that old are we? No! We're not! My 18 yro brother knows that song and I'm way cooler than him! And I do not think House is cool enough for that song. I thought I misheard it the first time, "Massive Atack? BUH?"
I am equally disturbed and comforted by Seth's response. You've got ying yang there.