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1) Thank you to amberlynne, bedofbones, carson_leigh, lazlet,b romanticalgirl, syrensure, and the very giving literaryll for going wayyyy above and beyond in helping in my time of music bereftness (so not a word). You are all adored madly.

b) I wrote Theodore/Neville pron last night for circe_tigana, and I'd planned to write KC pron for serialkarma but now I'm so pissed off that I cannae even see straight. She gets a rain check.

c) oxoniensis though, gets a big plate of biscuits for introducing me to Sunday afternoon in the garden with tea music -- more commonly referred to as Nick Drake. I knew the name, but not the sound, now it's all cool.

4) sprat has a poll here about your fic-reading habits. Take it, and then link me to some pron to read. I need inspiration.

5) Does anybody else remember the show Kidd Video from Saturday morning cartoons in the 80s? That was a damn good show. Okay, actually the lead was hot and that was enough. Plus, singing!

Comments

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

that poll's pretty funny

does it mean something that I couldn't really check anything on it?

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

With you? I'm not surprised.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

there was no ticky for "creativity"

sorry. my bitch scale broke recently.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Also, that's a total lie, you love death-fic.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

I do not LOVE deathfic for itself. If someone writes well and...what the hell is a mojo pin anyway? HUH??????????

anway, if someone writes well and kills someone off in a convincing and/or cracked out way, yes, I love it. but I wouldn't say any ol' deathfic is good enough.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Ahem, as I understood it back when Jeff wrote the song it was about some dream he had. I think it was about an angel and getting off dope.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

I knew you would know.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Oh, shit, that's the BEST icon. I must have one.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

I told you to go look on her icon tag. look at this one!

[dawnybee.livejournal.com]

//5) Does anybody else remember the show Kidd Video from Saturday morning cartoons in the 80s? That was a damn good show. Okay, actually the lead was hot and that was enough. Plus, singing!//

::singing::From my video to my radio (music break)

Who *didn't* like Kidd Video? :)

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

It was the business, wasn't it?! I remember just being in enthralled whenever it was on.

[jonem.livejournal.com]

You've just discovered Nick Drake?

Yay! Another convert to the cause!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I know who he is, but I was never inclined to actually listen to his stuff. I think I always mixed him up with Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, and I don't like their stuff.

[sarahmarie054.livejournal.com]

I totally loved Kidd Video.
It was kind of similar to Kids Incorporated, which was one of my faves.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I could never quite get into Kids Incorporated, but I loved Kidd Video.

[doll-revolution.livejournal.com]

http://www.kvflipside.org/

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. You totally get a cookie for this.

[literaryll.livejournal.com]

Why are you pissed off?

I gave you Nick Drake for your birthday hooker! ♥

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Is that where I heard him first? Um, oops? *is sufficently cowed*

[amberlynne.livejournal.com]

You are quite welcome. It was the least I could do. Well, that didn't involve dead bodies, of course. ;)

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

:D

[sprat.livejournal.com]

Thanks for pointing people at my poll!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

You are very welcome!

[thepouncer.livejournal.com]

I totally remember Kidd Video! And wasn't the bad guy called Masterblaster or something? And he zoomed around on a floating chair?

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Look (http://www.kvflipside.org/) at what doll_revolution linked me to!

[sparkymonster.livejournal.com]

I was madly obssessed with Kidd Video! I thought the lead was super hot and I adored the singing and badly choreographed dancing. I woudl totally kick small puppies to have it on DVD.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

YES! I meaan, ahem, I agree with everythign to said, a few comments up, someone linked me to a Kidd Video website, and I have to say, wow, the fashion of the day left a little something to be desired. But who cared, he was so hot!

[sparkymonster.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah looking back at teh clothing terrifies me. I remember thinking Carla's hot pink off the shoulder dress was incredibly glamorous. Kidd's brilliant vest, sleeveless top and skinny tie combo is killing me. It's so 80s riffic and yet I love.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

My sentiments exactly ;)

[circe-tigana.livejournal.com]

i still love my story. a lot.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Which one, techincally I wrote you two. ;)

Theodore really wants to live in polyamory with Neville and Blaise but knows they would kill each other in the first twenty minutes. Some people don't share so well.

[circe-tigana.livejournal.com]

Theodore hates.

He can't remember hating this much before; maybe he did -- after all, any boy who loses his mother must hate whether he admits it or not. But surely he couldn't have hated this much, with this much focused hatred.

"I hate you," he tells Blaise, and Blaise just nods and says quietly, "All right."

"I love you," he says then, and Blaise doesn't say anything to that, but then, there's nothing Blaise needs to say.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

O_O

I have to go sit in a quiet place now, because now I just see crazy porn, and Theodore biting Blaise because how can you love someone so much and hate them for making you be that in love? It's the sort of thing that makes Theodore crazy. He loves Neville dearly; every good thing that he strives to be Neville already is. And every time they're together, he tells himself that Neville is his future, but when he's with Blaise, the future doesn't matter.

Blaise is about Theodore's now. Blaise is all sarcasm and biting wit and trying so hard not to care, because then you can't get hurt. When Blaise touches him, minutely every part of Theodore's being comes alive and responds. Every thought Theodore has ever been able to have, Blaise already knows. Every hope, every dream, every devious scheme Blaise shares without a word.

Blaise has these eyes that track Theodore when they're not even together, and that's why Theodore can't stay away. It's why even when Theodore's with Neville's he's thinking of Blaise, and when their fingers brush against each other, or Blaise breathes on him, Theodore's skin goes hot and his heart does weird things in his chest. He can't concentrate on anything else around Blaise anymore, and it didn't used to be this way. If it had been this bad before then Theodore never would've been able to fall in love with Neville.

But that was then, and this is now, and Theodore just needs Blaise. He needs to touch him, and feel him, get past this thing that's sitting on his chest and making it hard to breathe. This is why he has to kiss Blaise, over and over and over, until his tips are tender and his jaw aches.

This is why Neville will leave him eventually, because Theodore just can't leave Blaise alone.


Um, wow. I had no idea it was so serious.

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

when he's with Blaise, the future doesn't matter.

that's called crazy in love, and what he has with Neville is easy and safe and settling!

The real problem is, that Theodore know that Blaise loves him back, that if Blaise could just give over himself for FIVE SECONDS, they could be together and not have to talk it out or really come to terms, because they will be who they are regardless of being together or not. But Theodore needs that one-time-only admission from Blaise, and he just doesn't think he'll get it, and that makes the longing and the need turn to rage. He's so filled with self-loathing that Neville can't be enough, that Blaise ever had to exist at all, and at Blaise for being so demented and stubborn he can't just budge that tiny tiny bit Theodore needs.

However, if Blaise was the sort of person that would budge even a fraction, then Theodore wouldn't be so hopelessly in love with him, either. *restart love/hate cycle*

They are, perhaps, BETTER than Draco and Blaise.

[circe-tigana.livejournal.com]

But Theodore *can't be* settled. There's nothing settled about this post-war time, where he's still remembering curse light. He's still remembering how easy it is to kill; why then is living is so difficult?

Neville said to him: "Go, then."

And maybe it could have been different if Neville had known he'd come back. But it isn't, is it, because there is resignation rather than hope, and Neville's own kind of hate which Theodore fears will take gentle root and be nurtured, even though Neville isn't that kind of boy.

But none of them are that boy anymore, are they, and maybe *that* is the real problem, maybe a living Slytherin *lost* is more tragic than a whole generation dead on Hampstead Heath.

Theodore wants Blaise. He does not say goodbye.

[circe-tigana.livejournal.com]

mmmmmmmmm fuck yes.


Blaise has these eyes that track Theodore when they're not even together, and that's why Theodore can't stay away.

yesyesyes.

hold that thought :)