Smallville drabble. Take two.

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Sensory Perception
Music: I recommend Ryan’s take on the matter.



Lex finds his senses wanting. Lacking. They fail him when he needs them. They deceive him when the evidence is clear, and Lex isn’t sure who, or what, he can trust anymore.

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Lex doesn’t trust his eyes anymore because they don’t see properly. His eyes see Clark’s smiles and his father’s cane. His eyes see numbers that aren’t supposed to be there and family resemblances where there are none.

He and Clark look nothing alike. The age is all wrong, and Clark has black hair. His father is a brunette and Mrs. Dunleavey is a redhead. She’s more likely to be his mother.

He thinks she might see that too.

Of course she’s delusional, and Lex isn’t. Lex can’t be. It’s his intrinsic premise, and if it’s flawed then everything else will fall apart. He looks at Clark and wonders a different kind of ‘what if’ now, but it’s obviously all wrong. His eyes keep drawing him back and telling him one thing, when his brain knows another.

Maybe the possibility has made him blind to the truth.

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Fingers skim his body like warm breath, but even when they touch him, Lex doesn’t feel them. His father’s wavering fingers don’t make him flinch anymore because they seem to come more often now, and Lex has learned to prepare. His skin still crawls and a voice still says ‘run,’ but he stays because Lionel can touch him, but he can’t feel him.

If Lionel could feel Lex, then Lionel would be afraid. Then Lex would be afraid -- but no one can feel him anymore, except Clark, but Clark doesn’t touch him. It’s all in Lex’s imagination that Clark touches him. That Clark can feel his pain and hurt and need. It’s only Lex’s mind that tells him that Clark’s eyes watch him and seek him out; and sometimes Lex can feel an imaginary hand on his shoulder or the small of his back, but it’s only his imagination.

Clark doesn’t want to touch him.

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If lies could be smelled, then Lionel would reek. Or he should reek, but Lex can’t really be sure anymore. The castle is an olfactory haven of flowers and Acqua d’Parma aftershave, and Lex’s nose is practically twisting off. He can’t smell anything except Lionel and what Lionel wants. Lionel might be telling the truth – or his version of the truth - but he manages to twist the entire thing until Lex can’t tell if he’s coming or going or if he’s lying or not.

It used to be easier.

Now everything has changed, and Lex can’t sense Lionel’s lies as well anymore. Lionel is blind, but Lex is the one who can’t see. He can’t smell anymore either, and it’s a lot like his relationship with Clark. Of course, Lex isn’t sure he would want to smell Clark’s lies so maybe it’s all for the best.

If Lex could remember what it’s like to have a cold then maybe he could cope better. Maybe if his other senses weren't out of alignment he could use them to sniff out the truth of Lucas Luthor and the brother that his other four senses are telling him isn’t quite as dead as he should be. And as much as Lionel cuts the figure of a father in mourning, there’s another nameless sense that’s telling Lex it's all a lie.

Lex isn't sure what this new sense it, but considering his issues with the old ones, perhaps it's time to try something new.

Comments

[impudent-rabbit.livejournal.com]

Lex finds his senses wanting. Lacking. They fail him when he needs them. They deceive him when the evidence is clear, and Lex isn’t sure who, or what, he can trust anymore.

You got me right from the first fucking sentence. I need to love this boy!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I heart Lex. You know this, I'm a Lex-ho. Sounds like car, don't it?

[barely-bean.livejournal.com]

Poor poor Lex. We seriously need a Lex gets hugged episode don't we. Great job as always!

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

I'll second that motion. Lex needs love too. Poor baby.

[happyminion.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I love it when you divide and conquer.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Hi, darlin,' how's things?

Also, you know, I'm glad you like it. It makes me happy. This is the second Lex brain-dig I've done in two days. I feel like I owe him some happiness. Any requests?

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[happyminion.livejournal.com]

I think you should give him Clark, delving into the complex relationship between Warrior Angel and Devilicus.

Can you *see* Lex's expression if Clark suggested that his beloved hero was maybe having some weird vibe going on with Dev?

Ah, yes. I love shocked, flustered Lex.

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[hackthis.livejournal.com]

You are twisted and cruel, and my bunnies love you for it.

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[happyminion.livejournal.com]

Mwah!!