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hackthis_archiveFor a neologism ‘heteroflexible’ is pretty damn succinct I must say.
Harry Potter
Not-So-Straight and Narrow
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reenka wondered and so did I. This is dedicated to her
Harry doesn’t think he’s straight, but he doesn’t necessarily think he’s gay either. He just sort of is -- without the obligatory tags attached. Not that Harry above naming whatever category he falls into, but the whole category thing itself concerns him; and why can’t he just be whatever the hell he is without anybody needing to know?
Of course if he had had sex by now then he might not be so on the fence.
It doesn’t actually pain Harry to consider this, because he thinks about his sexuality so often that it’s just a running commentary in his head. After all he’s a sixteen year old boy, and it’s rather obvious, as least to him, that he appreciates people who are attractive regardless of sex or house affiliation.
Girls and boys have different bits, but inside they’re all the same: Harry’s just likes people.
He knows it started with Cho because she’s a pretty girl, and only a blind man couldn‘t see that. She’s bright and witty, and even though she’s still in mourning over Cedric, Harry has to admit that there’s something kind of hot about the whole depressed and wearing lots of black thing. Her hair shines and her smile is reserved, but his hormones don’t really care about that. When Harry sees Cho on the field and in the halls, he has an overwhelming urge to snog her repeatedly and tell her to get over it. But that’s kind of crass and cruel, and Harry’s not that sort.
He just thinks it.
Of course Harry wants her to notice him, but he doesn’t want to be her rebound guy. He’s heard about what happens to them, and the last thing he needs is to be left high and dry after being used, abused and rather badly confused. At least that’s what happened to Seamus after Parvati broke up with Terry Boot, and Harry thinks not.
But he still thinks she’s hot.
Of course he sort of feels the same way about Ron, so there is that.
Harry’s attraction to Ron doesn’t compare to what he feels for Cho. It's like comparing Gryffindors and Slytherins.
Harry likes Cho because she’s girlie and feminine, and Ron is a million things but Harry‘s not expecting Ron to stomp over to him anytime soon to inquire about nail varnish. Ron’s charm comes from other things, and his hair glows even in the dimmest light. Sometimes Harry just wants to touch it, but based on the way that Ron continually moons over Hermione, Harry knows he can’t possibly feel the same. Still, Harry thinks it might be nice if he did. They could really be happy, he and Ron. They’re friends, and they’re close, maybe not that close, but they have a connection, a symmetry, that he doesn’t find everyday. They can anticipate what the other is thinking and what each is going to say before a mouth opens. If nothing else Ron’s family likes Harry, and that has to count for something.
Harry‘s loathe to remember of his life before Ron and Charlie and Percy and Bill and Fred and George, and he suspects that that might be part of Ron‘s appeal. Whatever feelings he has for Ron are sure to be tied up in his family structure. The Weasleys are something Harry’s only recently begun to have, and he could do worse than being Harry Weasley Potter. Besides, anybody who dates Ron will have to be comfortable with his family, the Weasleys are too close to accept anybody whom they don’t like. And at least Harry doesn’t have to worry about Ron running off with someone like Pansy Parkinson because Mrs. Weasley would never stand for that.
All the same, while Harry may be ambivalent about his sexuality, he knows that Ron’s not, so that doesn’t really leave him anywhere. Naturally there’s always Hermione to consider, but Harry gets the distinct impression that she’s saving herself for someone who is distinctly not him.
Even if that weren’t the case, Harry doesn’t think he could ever think of Hermione in that way. Not that he doesn’t think she’s pretty and smart and amazing, but he knows her well. Perhaps too well, and there are all these little habits that she has that he doesn’t think he could deal with.
For starters she’s just too focused, and Harry likes to have fun. Plus, the way she constantly has to be on top of everything tends to drive Harry a bit mad, and while he doesn’t have to be in charge all the time, he knows that they would knock heads more than they already do. That’s saying a lot. Of course, the real issue happens to be Ron and his ironclad claim on her. Harry knows that Ron would never forgive Harry for taking his girl. So, that puts the final nail in that, and looking around the Great Hall at dinner, Harry can honestly say that not getting into Hermione’s knickers or Ron’s y-fronts won’t be the worst thing that’s ever befallen him.
There are some extremely attractive people at Hogwarts, and Harry isn’t exactly gagging for lack of choice. Hannah Abbott and her flaming red hair remind Harry of the photographs of his mother, and Justin Finch-Fletchley and his double dimples have had the girls queuing up since their fifth year. Seamus has caught Harry’s eye once or twice, but Harry’s not sure how he feels about dealing with such a big mouthed virgin. He knows Seamus is still a virgin because if he weren’t then the entire school would know. Seamus isn’t the sort to keep something so earth-shattering to himself.
Even Dean is sort of cute, but Harry isn’t really that into cute. Fourth years are cute; Pigwidgeon is ‘cute.’ Ginny Weasley is cute, but Harry has absolutely no designs on her; it would be like dating his sister. Not that he actually has a sister, but that’s pretty much what dating Ginny would be tantamount to.
No, Harry’s definitely not interested in cute.
What Harry’s after is something more than cute, something more than a pretty face. Harry wants someone who he finds ‘hot.’ He wants someone he’s keen on, someone to fancy. Harry’s wants someone that when people see them together they’ll say that Harry’s a lucky sod. Of course, with the curse of his fame, Harry might be hard pressed to find someone like that, but he knows that that person has to be out there somewhere.
Harry is nothing if not optimistic.
After all, if Harry can admit that he even finds Draco Malfoy with his sneer and slim-hipped stroll… intriguing, then surely he hasn’t closed himself off to all his options.
Harry Potter
Not-So-Straight and Narrow
reenka wondered and so did I. This is dedicated to herHarry doesn’t think he’s straight, but he doesn’t necessarily think he’s gay either. He just sort of is -- without the obligatory tags attached. Not that Harry above naming whatever category he falls into, but the whole category thing itself concerns him; and why can’t he just be whatever the hell he is without anybody needing to know?
Of course if he had had sex by now then he might not be so on the fence.
It doesn’t actually pain Harry to consider this, because he thinks about his sexuality so often that it’s just a running commentary in his head. After all he’s a sixteen year old boy, and it’s rather obvious, as least to him, that he appreciates people who are attractive regardless of sex or house affiliation.
Girls and boys have different bits, but inside they’re all the same: Harry’s just likes people.
He knows it started with Cho because she’s a pretty girl, and only a blind man couldn‘t see that. She’s bright and witty, and even though she’s still in mourning over Cedric, Harry has to admit that there’s something kind of hot about the whole depressed and wearing lots of black thing. Her hair shines and her smile is reserved, but his hormones don’t really care about that. When Harry sees Cho on the field and in the halls, he has an overwhelming urge to snog her repeatedly and tell her to get over it. But that’s kind of crass and cruel, and Harry’s not that sort.
He just thinks it.
Of course Harry wants her to notice him, but he doesn’t want to be her rebound guy. He’s heard about what happens to them, and the last thing he needs is to be left high and dry after being used, abused and rather badly confused. At least that’s what happened to Seamus after Parvati broke up with Terry Boot, and Harry thinks not.
But he still thinks she’s hot.
Of course he sort of feels the same way about Ron, so there is that.
Harry’s attraction to Ron doesn’t compare to what he feels for Cho. It's like comparing Gryffindors and Slytherins.
Harry likes Cho because she’s girlie and feminine, and Ron is a million things but Harry‘s not expecting Ron to stomp over to him anytime soon to inquire about nail varnish. Ron’s charm comes from other things, and his hair glows even in the dimmest light. Sometimes Harry just wants to touch it, but based on the way that Ron continually moons over Hermione, Harry knows he can’t possibly feel the same. Still, Harry thinks it might be nice if he did. They could really be happy, he and Ron. They’re friends, and they’re close, maybe not that close, but they have a connection, a symmetry, that he doesn’t find everyday. They can anticipate what the other is thinking and what each is going to say before a mouth opens. If nothing else Ron’s family likes Harry, and that has to count for something.
Harry‘s loathe to remember of his life before Ron and Charlie and Percy and Bill and Fred and George, and he suspects that that might be part of Ron‘s appeal. Whatever feelings he has for Ron are sure to be tied up in his family structure. The Weasleys are something Harry’s only recently begun to have, and he could do worse than being Harry Weasley Potter. Besides, anybody who dates Ron will have to be comfortable with his family, the Weasleys are too close to accept anybody whom they don’t like. And at least Harry doesn’t have to worry about Ron running off with someone like Pansy Parkinson because Mrs. Weasley would never stand for that.
All the same, while Harry may be ambivalent about his sexuality, he knows that Ron’s not, so that doesn’t really leave him anywhere. Naturally there’s always Hermione to consider, but Harry gets the distinct impression that she’s saving herself for someone who is distinctly not him.
Even if that weren’t the case, Harry doesn’t think he could ever think of Hermione in that way. Not that he doesn’t think she’s pretty and smart and amazing, but he knows her well. Perhaps too well, and there are all these little habits that she has that he doesn’t think he could deal with.
For starters she’s just too focused, and Harry likes to have fun. Plus, the way she constantly has to be on top of everything tends to drive Harry a bit mad, and while he doesn’t have to be in charge all the time, he knows that they would knock heads more than they already do. That’s saying a lot. Of course, the real issue happens to be Ron and his ironclad claim on her. Harry knows that Ron would never forgive Harry for taking his girl. So, that puts the final nail in that, and looking around the Great Hall at dinner, Harry can honestly say that not getting into Hermione’s knickers or Ron’s y-fronts won’t be the worst thing that’s ever befallen him.
There are some extremely attractive people at Hogwarts, and Harry isn’t exactly gagging for lack of choice. Hannah Abbott and her flaming red hair remind Harry of the photographs of his mother, and Justin Finch-Fletchley and his double dimples have had the girls queuing up since their fifth year. Seamus has caught Harry’s eye once or twice, but Harry’s not sure how he feels about dealing with such a big mouthed virgin. He knows Seamus is still a virgin because if he weren’t then the entire school would know. Seamus isn’t the sort to keep something so earth-shattering to himself.
Even Dean is sort of cute, but Harry isn’t really that into cute. Fourth years are cute; Pigwidgeon is ‘cute.’ Ginny Weasley is cute, but Harry has absolutely no designs on her; it would be like dating his sister. Not that he actually has a sister, but that’s pretty much what dating Ginny would be tantamount to.
No, Harry’s definitely not interested in cute.
What Harry’s after is something more than cute, something more than a pretty face. Harry wants someone who he finds ‘hot.’ He wants someone he’s keen on, someone to fancy. Harry’s wants someone that when people see them together they’ll say that Harry’s a lucky sod. Of course, with the curse of his fame, Harry might be hard pressed to find someone like that, but he knows that that person has to be out there somewhere.
Harry is nothing if not optimistic.
After all, if Harry can admit that he even finds Draco Malfoy with his sneer and slim-hipped stroll… intriguing, then surely he hasn’t closed himself off to all his options.
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Date: 2003-01-05 09:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-06 11:22 am (UTC)I back away very slowly when mpreg is involved, and you know the whole reason you don't like h/d is because you read tripe like that.
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Date: 2003-01-05 09:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-06 11:24 am (UTC)Thank you so much, I'm glad you liked it! :)
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Date: 2003-01-05 10:30 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-06 11:25 am (UTC)::colours slightly:: i'm honoured that you think so.
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Date: 2003-01-05 10:39 am (UTC)But you gave me a Draco at the end. And as beautifully written as ever.
I'm so OTP it isn't funny any more. Clex and H/D and I get *jealous* when I read about either of them with anybody else. It's scary, in a way.
*cuddles OTPs*
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Date: 2003-01-06 11:26 am (UTC)But you gave me a Draco at the end. And as beautifully written as ever.
I'm so OTP it isn't funny any more. Clex and H/D and I get *jealous* when I read about either of them with anybody else. It's scary, in a way.
*cuddles OTPs*
You and
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Date: 2003-01-06 03:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-05 12:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-06 11:27 am (UTC)You fancy Ron too? Actually, nevermind, I know you do.
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Date: 2003-01-05 01:23 pm (UTC)I love you!!
This is the way it should be, ALWAYS. (I'm such an idealist I guess. but STILL.)
I really like this, as an excellent exploration of character without being overly h/anything. (I just woke up, not very eloquent, but yay, fic!)
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Date: 2003-01-06 11:28 am (UTC)I love you!!
This is the way it should be, ALWAYS. (I'm such an idealist I guess. but STILL.)
I really like this, as an excellent exploration of character without being overly h/anything. (I just woke up, not very eloquent, but yay, fic!)
See, this is lovely ::pointedly glares all who are unhappy with lack of decisiveness:: Thank you, I'm glad you liked it.
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Date: 2003-01-06 12:03 am (UTC)hee~! i found that pretty funny. yah, this is often what happens, in fic anyway. and in life, i guess. people have -really- good sex and decide "ok, this means i'm [insert orientation fitting person one had sex with here]". but anyway, it made me giggle and realize i probably shouldn't take it too seriously, and stuff.
Harry just likes people.
although that was a tad-- too hopeful. or blunt. or something. hee, the fic is sort of saying he likes hotness. though people sounds more mature ><;;
ahahahahah cute vs. hot ahahahahaha
*howls* it's an interesting differentiation. of course, which one is more shallow would be a thorny question >:D<
but yah. this seems useful. sort of like a study-sketch for a more detailed work in oil or something.
i do so want to see this harry -used- somewhere, y'know. yah. i think this is a valid characterization, most definitely. except for malfoy being intriguing. i wonder if that's what harry -secretly- things, but consciously he probably is blind to malfoy's intriguingness and just notices his annoyingness. intriguingly annoying??! that's a possibility >:D<
i liked this harry, and the fic of course.
am sleepy and probably not as coherent as i could be, though. i love how it all comes down to malfoy in the end, sort of by a process of elimination almost >:D<
ahahhaha 'cause malfoy is the reasonable choice >:D<
he is! :D
~reena
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Date: 2003-01-06 11:32 am (UTC)mebbe. you never know ;)
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Date: 2003-01-06 01:47 pm (UTC)although that was a tad-- too hopeful. or blunt. or something. hee, the fic is sort of saying he likes hotness. though people sounds more mature ><;;"
I don't know, I interpreted that as "harry likes personalities, not plumbing," but that might just be the way I think. :B
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Date: 2003-01-06 01:53 pm (UTC)hee. i may sound nit-picky but um... i figure everyone knows i like it to begin with, so it's ok ><;;
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Date: 2003-01-08 08:51 am (UTC)Harry doesn’t think he’s straight, but he doesn’t necessarily think he’s gay either. He just sort of is
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Date: 2003-01-08 09:52 am (UTC)Thank you very much, I'm glad that you enjoyed this so.