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hackthis_archiveThe presents for y'all are here.
This is just what it looks like.
I would never belong to a club that would have me as a member.”
-Groucho Marx
Orlando is a starfucker.
He knows this is a rather derogatory term, but it’s also quite fitting. In his mind it doesn’t mean that he wants to shag people who are famous, but that he fancies people who are magnetic. People who are bright and brilliant and attract him because of their radiance.
Orlando thinks that people are radiant in lots of different ways that have nothing to do with their physical looks and everything to do with the person inside. Not everything is about fame, and the more time he spends in New Zealand, the more Orli realizes this.
When he first got to Wellington he set his sights on Elijah, not because he was young and impressionable with eyes the size of dinner plates, but just because he was so bright.
Elijah’s fame never had anything to do with it; he was simply another hobbit to Orlando. He was just a boy who caught Orli’s eye, because the thing about Elijah is that he shines.
Lij's luminescent, and that appealed to Orlando like a baby and a flashy object. Orlando has never been one to take ‘no’ for an answer, and once he decided he wanted Elijah, he set about getting him. But in the end it really was about the chase, because once Orli had Elijah in his bed, and in his trailer, and in his life, he found out that Elijah wasn’t nearly as shiny as Orli thought he was.
As a matter of fact, Orli found Elijah a bit dim, and when they were together Elijah just didn’t seem as bright. He lost his allure, like someone had turned off the light.
Not that Orli doesn’t still think the world of Elijah, but they just didn’t feel right.
Elijah seemed to need him, and Orli has never been good with being needed. Orli’s always been keen on people who are whole without him. Perhaps this is because then he doesn’t feel as bad when he insinuates his way into their lives only to leave.
Everyone he’s loved has never really needed him. His mother, Sam, Atti, even Jemma loved him and left him without so much as a by-your-leave. They’re all complete without him, and perhaps that’s what Orlando deserves. Maybe that’s what he’s always needed: reinforcement that life will go on without him. Proof that he will be alone in the end because sometimes, sometimes Orli thinks he's not even supposed to be alive.
Orli knows that this doesn’t speak well for him and how long he can continue on the way he's been living, but life is too short to be tied down. He truly believes this. Besides, what’s he supposed to do with someone who actually wants him in return? Where’s the fun in that? No one benefits when everyone gets hurt in the end. This mindset could say quite a bit about him and that failed engagement and every suspension bridge he’s ever jumped off of, but Orli knows how to move on when the time has come, which is more than can be said for some.
A true star belongs to no one.
Maybe this is why Orli lives his life differently.
For him it’s always about the challenge, the end result is completely irrelevant, and it may not even be reached. Which is exactly why he doesn’t think twice about his attraction to Viggo. Viggo doesn’t glare like a flash in the pan, he glows steadily like a lighthouse by the sea. Viggo does for Viggo, and for Henry.
What Orli sees in Viggo is his steadfastness. His resoluteness. Viggo doesn’t need someone like Orli, and he probably doesn’t want him. That’s attractive in a thousand different ways, because Orlando is always in search of that ever-elusive star, and if Viggo is that star then he’ll never let Orli catch him.
If Viggo is indeed the perfect bright shiny object for Orlando then he will continue to burn bright, long after Orlando is gone.
-finis-
Notes: Rather randomly inspired by this image, and much prodding from my girl. Thanks Kass.
This is just what it looks like.
I would never belong to a club that would have me as a member.”
-Groucho Marx
Orlando is a starfucker.
He knows this is a rather derogatory term, but it’s also quite fitting. In his mind it doesn’t mean that he wants to shag people who are famous, but that he fancies people who are magnetic. People who are bright and brilliant and attract him because of their radiance.
Orlando thinks that people are radiant in lots of different ways that have nothing to do with their physical looks and everything to do with the person inside. Not everything is about fame, and the more time he spends in New Zealand, the more Orli realizes this.
When he first got to Wellington he set his sights on Elijah, not because he was young and impressionable with eyes the size of dinner plates, but just because he was so bright.
Elijah’s fame never had anything to do with it; he was simply another hobbit to Orlando. He was just a boy who caught Orli’s eye, because the thing about Elijah is that he shines.
Lij's luminescent, and that appealed to Orlando like a baby and a flashy object. Orlando has never been one to take ‘no’ for an answer, and once he decided he wanted Elijah, he set about getting him. But in the end it really was about the chase, because once Orli had Elijah in his bed, and in his trailer, and in his life, he found out that Elijah wasn’t nearly as shiny as Orli thought he was.
As a matter of fact, Orli found Elijah a bit dim, and when they were together Elijah just didn’t seem as bright. He lost his allure, like someone had turned off the light.
Not that Orli doesn’t still think the world of Elijah, but they just didn’t feel right.
Elijah seemed to need him, and Orli has never been good with being needed. Orli’s always been keen on people who are whole without him. Perhaps this is because then he doesn’t feel as bad when he insinuates his way into their lives only to leave.
Everyone he’s loved has never really needed him. His mother, Sam, Atti, even Jemma loved him and left him without so much as a by-your-leave. They’re all complete without him, and perhaps that’s what Orlando deserves. Maybe that’s what he’s always needed: reinforcement that life will go on without him. Proof that he will be alone in the end because sometimes, sometimes Orli thinks he's not even supposed to be alive.
Orli knows that this doesn’t speak well for him and how long he can continue on the way he's been living, but life is too short to be tied down. He truly believes this. Besides, what’s he supposed to do with someone who actually wants him in return? Where’s the fun in that? No one benefits when everyone gets hurt in the end. This mindset could say quite a bit about him and that failed engagement and every suspension bridge he’s ever jumped off of, but Orli knows how to move on when the time has come, which is more than can be said for some.
A true star belongs to no one.
Maybe this is why Orli lives his life differently.
For him it’s always about the challenge, the end result is completely irrelevant, and it may not even be reached. Which is exactly why he doesn’t think twice about his attraction to Viggo. Viggo doesn’t glare like a flash in the pan, he glows steadily like a lighthouse by the sea. Viggo does for Viggo, and for Henry.
What Orli sees in Viggo is his steadfastness. His resoluteness. Viggo doesn’t need someone like Orli, and he probably doesn’t want him. That’s attractive in a thousand different ways, because Orlando is always in search of that ever-elusive star, and if Viggo is that star then he’ll never let Orli catch him.
If Viggo is indeed the perfect bright shiny object for Orlando then he will continue to burn bright, long after Orlando is gone.
-finis-
Notes: Rather randomly inspired by this image, and much prodding from my girl. Thanks Kass.
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Date: 2003-02-14 07:18 pm (UTC)Oh, yes.
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Date: 2003-09-24 06:40 am (UTC)It's beautiful - a well-done character study. I love the idea of Orli being attracted to people that glow, and more than that - I can see it. How you write it makes it all so tangible.