Mini-break.

[hackthis_archive]

Come pick me up
Take me out
Fuck me up
Steal my records
Screw all my friends
Behind my back
With a smile on your face
And then do it again...

Smallville
Shattered



A few years more and it could have been Lana. With a little more tact and a bit more time together, it could even have been Chloe.

Looking back on it now, in way that he never did before, Clark can see things that he ignored. Signs that he should have paid attention to: Desiree. Victoria.

But hindsight is perfect vision, and now it’s too late.

Lex can never be alone, Clark has always known that, but somehow he always thought that he would have more time to prove that they were supposed to be together. Clark always thought that they would have more chances to get things right, to work through the wrongs.

Clark never expected his chances to run out, he never expected Dr. Helen Bryce. But he was foolish, and now... well, now his destiny will have to lie with someone else.

Despite whatever Lex says about the isolation of his childhood, despite whatever misgiving he has about friendship, Lex is not meant to be by himself. He will always need someone by his side, he will always want someone to be by his side to approve of what he does, or to even disapprove. Clark was lax in his responsibilities. He kept putting things off, and Lex has needs now. Clark has always been contingent upon later.

Now there is no later.

Now there is only Helen and it pains Clark in ways he thought he could never be hurt. He's not invulnerable, even when he tries to turn a blind eye.

It could have been anyone, Clark can see that now.

He just always thought it would be him.

Comments

[rynalwyn.livejournal.com]

I don't watch Smallville, so I have no way to comment on this fic with any credibility. I just popped in to say that your Ryan Adams love makes me very very happy. And that Ryan Adams icon you have makes me even happier. :)

Tomorrow you'll probably give up on me...I wouldn't blame you, hell I'll celebrate...cause despite everything you may have ever said to me...the bar is a beautiful place...

Loves me some Ryan Adams, I do.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Loves me some Ryan Adams, I do.

*points at icon*
Word, babe. Just complete and utter 'word.'

[barely-bean.livejournal.com]

*sniffles* It's not too late Clark, it's not. Poor woobie.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

*sniffles* It's not too late Clark, it's not. Poor woobie.

I'd like to write something, you know, happy-ish, but there's a new order currently being established in my brain writing-wise and there are a lot of bitter people right now. Ah well. I'm glad you liked this, sweetie.

[xnitelite.livejournal.com]

Clark has always been contingent upon later.

Ahhhhhh. Damn those missed opportunities. Part of me wants to say "Poor Clark," and the other wants to thump him.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Ahhhhhh. Damn those missed opportunities. Part of me wants to say "Poor Clark," and the other wants to thump him.

*Jumps up excitedly* WORD! That dumbass, he has no one but himself to blame, you know?

*glare* you bring me pain.

[lestrange.livejournal.com]

myeyes! myeyes!

THE PAIN.

THE ANGUISH.

WHERE IS MY OTP?!

*gropes for shattered pieces and applies SUPERGLUE*

There. That ought to hold them.

Re: *glare* you bring me pain.

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

WHERE IS MY OTP?!

*gropes for shattered pieces and applies SUPERGLUE*

There. That ought to hold them.

*pats* There there, it'll be okay. Possibly.

[resmin.livejournal.com]

*sniff*
You just make it hurt so good.
And that entry song snippet set the mood perfectly.

Thanks for writing this.
rm

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

*sniff*
You just make it hurt so good.
And that entry song snippet set the mood perfectly.

That's my Ryan. I heart Ryan.

[lilithchilde.livejournal.com]

That's . . . just right. Sad, but still, that's about how I see it.

(Well, with the added opinion that Clark has been a jackass lately and doesn't *deserve* Lex anymore, even though they're my OTP.)

Anyway, good job. :)

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

That's . . . just right. Sad, but still, that's about how I see it.

(Well, with the added opinion that Clark has been a jackass lately and doesn't *deserve* Lex anymore, even though they're my OTP.)

Anyway, good job. :)

It is right! And okay, sad too, but still, Clark made his bed, you know?

*waiilllls*

[latxcvi.livejournal.com]

Waah.

Make it better.

Okay, really, don't, because it hurts just ... right.

You big meanie. ;-)

Re: *waiilllls*

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

Waah.

Make it better.

Okay, really, don't, because it hurts just ... right.

You big meanie. ;-)

I am a big meanie, you should make it better. *Drops anvil*

[rageprufrock.livejournal.com]

*pokes at heart, having been ripped violently from chest*

Oh, well. *hugs* Thank you for sharing this, it's brilliant and sad and just right. :)

*kicks Clark in the shin with Kryptonite boots, just for good measure*

[hackthis.livejournal.com]

*pokes at heart, having been ripped violently from chest*

Oh, well. *hugs* Thank you for sharing this, it's brilliant and sad and just right. :)

*kicks Clark in the shin with Kryptonite boots, just for good measure*

It's his own fault damnit! Also, more String Theory, please. I'm just saying. I'm so behind in commenting I'll never catch up, but you know, more String Theory cos it's good and damnit, I'm in NEED! Ah hem. Yeah. Pilot season makes me more unhinged than normal. So. Gonna get on that soon, right? Please?

[cyclogenesis.livejournal.com]

*sniff* The pain, Zahra. The pain. On the other hand, this did leave me with the urge to snuggle Clark, which the show has definitely not done lately. You're filling a void, darling. Props.