idealists are the cruelest monsters of them all.

I have just learned of the passing of the wonderfully talented and brilliant thamiris, which has saddened me greatly. I first met Tham many moons ago in when we were all in Smallville together, and she was always exceedingly kind and giving. She will be greatly missed.

The obituary is here. Memorial donations in her name are being acepted to the Royal Columbian Hospital Foundation, 330 East Columbia Street, New Westminster, B.C., V3L 3W7. Just please do NOT use the name "Thamiris" in conjunction with her real name, please; she was private about her fannishness and her slash.

*Thanks to boniblithe

Do you like my icon? I DO. *draws hearts around skripka

Do you know what else I like? George Clooney. Especially when he's paying $20 for lemonade at a kid's lemonade stand. serialkarma pointed out that the children's mother must be one hell of a fangirl, so tell me, which one of you is this story about? (Thank you sameoldhope!)

I'm not into American Idol since A-M-E-R-I-C-A-N-I-D-O-L does not spell Entourage or Psych or Nathan Petrelli. However, defamer_atom was so impressed with this fabulously slashy photograph that I thought the Idol people on my list would like to see it. Namely slodwick and sameoldhope.

I would also like to talk about last night's Friday Night Lights, mainly to say that I love Landry Clarke and feel that what the world really needs is an Unoffical Landry Challenge -- which um, I won't run, because that's not me -- where we all just write some Landry fic, because he is that awesome and deserves it. YAY LANDRY! YAY JESSE! I would also like to say that I know there have been many people who have been all about Eric and Tami Taylor from day one, and while I didn't dislike them I wasn't enamoured of them. Last night totally changed that. Rock out, Coach and Mrs. T!

And lastly, which really should have been firstly, sparky77 and I were discussing Nathan last week (as we are often wont to do on days ending in 'Y'), and as she told me about her Heroes/Ocean's 11 story, I said, "NO! What the world really needs is Nathan Petrelli/Danny Ocean fic!" And don't you know? She went and wrote it. This Thing is proof that sparky77 loves me, and writes a supremely brilliant Nathan, and wants to give me her Adrian Pasdar clone too, because one can never have too many Adrian Pasdars.

He's like George that way.


ETA: Hey, does anybody have any Magic Numbers they want to share with me? Just a couple songs so I can test them out?

I love recommending stories. I love finding stories TO recommend. I love being so fucking excited about something that I just want everybody to see/read it RIGHT. THE FUCK. NOW.

1. Texas Forever by topaz119. I. Uh. Jesus, man. I don't know what to say about this story. This is the story of Tim Riggins, full stop. Friday Night Lights will eventually reveal his past and his present, but this is his future in all its Technicolor glory, and it revels in all his relationships -- Tyra, Billy, Smash, Jason, you name it. God, this is a fucking awesome story.

2. Simply a reflection of your own self by sinsense, which is Landry and Tim/Landry and also? Landry. Because well, is there anybody watching FNL who doesn't love Landry? Exactly. sinsense has this sense about Landry that just makes you go, "Oh, Landry." So, just read this and thank me later.

3. She Likes a Prizefight by somniesperus, which is The Devil Wears Prada movie-verse Miranda/Andy, and let me tell you, I had no idea how Telanu was going to make this work, but this story doesn't just work -- it fucking SINGS. The writing is stellar, and I was just so sad when it was over because there was no more to read.

4. Curtains Are Monogamous by sheldrake. This is anthropomorphic fic, and what that is, for anybody who doesn't know, is when you assign human characteristics to otherwise non-sentient or non-human objects. So there's a nice group of people who write Mac/PC fic or stories about spoons and forks. This story is about, uh, the curtains. Just read it. It was the last story I read last week and it totally gave me warm fuzzies.

5. People living in the_guesthouse, astolat made an Entourage video. Yes, I know. Try not to wet yourself. Six days until our show is back. Oh, Ari I've missed your filthy mouth. I know you nearly plotzed when George offered a $1,000,000 to the person who could prove he was out slandering David O Russell.

6. Some random chick named hackthis wrote Angela Petrelli with a healthy side-dose of Nathan/Peter, self-delusion, and mothering gone awry. What's Love Got to Do With It?. Heroes. Rated PG for one bad word and several mindfucks.


*Special thanks to musesfool and thefourthvine for having such brilliant rec sites for trawling and such awesome taste.

I've been indisposed as of late, but you're not all forgotten. In fact, I come bearing GIFTS for all you ungrateful wenches.

1. Last week slodwick and hackthis combined their evol powers to bring you the latest Petrelli Brothers Mix Tape I've Got Another Confession to Make, which if I do say so myself, is pretty fucking awesome. It's a Hackwick production, what else do you expect?

2. On April 8th, once again, all your lives will be improved for the better. I know of what I speak. I have been gifted by the box office gods and a short Jewish man with a bad temper and a foul mouth. ( Click here for Season 3 1/2 promotional art for ENTOURAGE. Yes. Praise be. )

We all know the advent of new Ari means the advent of George-fic, so, you know, George, get your ass working. Your agent is coming home.

3. While we're on the subject of Entourage, I had the pleasure of beta reading a Vince/Eric story zoetrope wrote a few weeks ago, How Eric Likes His Eggs and I think you should all read it. NOW.

4. Everybody wishes they had a literaryll, but you don't. Sucks to be you. She's going to get some Stoned!Peter for all her good deeds. Oh, yes, precious.

5. The ending of last week's Friday Night Lights was so magnificent the baby Petrelli clapped. Thank you FNL for the OT4 action. I didn't even know I had an OT4. Apparently I do.

So. This month's Frankenstein Mix 11.0 is your desert island mix. 15 songs for the rest of your exceptionally tanned and sweaty life. This is a lot harder than it sounds: just me, a desert island, Adrian Pasdar and a vat of SPF 30 (Hello, so not dying of skin cancer!). What? It's my island, I can have whatever I want. Except more than 15 songs apparently.

( The Sand in My Shoes Mix )

a) I put up The Fratellis 'Chelsea Dagger' last week, except, whoops, wrong file! This is Chelsea Dagger. Last week was 'Whistle for the Choir' *Thanks saturnalia

2) them0rgue wrote an absolutely beautiful Peter & Nathan story Not All Words are Truths, which I urge you to hightail it over to her El Jay and read. One of the things I adore about Morgan's writing is her exquisite attention to detail and that's here is spades, so you know, LOVE THE AUTHOR! Why? Because if you want to get it -- you have to give it. Duh.

c) Peter/Nathan vid to Snow Patrol's You Could Be Happy by kaiyote. Yes, I am still on Snow Patrol strike, but that's no reason not to enjoy the vid. Also, you know, support your fandom, people!

d) Yesterday, it was Sylar/Mohinder. Today, it's Nathan/Peter. OMG! People! WTF! I have, like, real shit to do. antheia this is your fault. slodwick you really didn't help.

Heroes
Nathan, Nathan/Peter
Spoilers through 1.18

In My Dreams it's Always You


( God told him to choose. So, he did. )

heidi8 has informed me that the First Gentleman is shilling for the Head Speechwriter. I'm fairly certain there might be an issue there, but what really perturbs me is that I can't seem to find the 'Americone Dream' at the flipping store. Who the hell is keeping me from fudge-covered Stephen?

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Son of a bitch, I forgot to say THANK YOU! to all you lovely people who gave me love in musesfool's Love Meme that happened last week. You guys are all awesome and gave me these lovely warm fuzzies and I thank every last one of you for making my day, week AND month. *draws sparkly hearts around you guys*

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I adore sparky77 for many many reasons. She makes me laugh. She loves the Petrellis just as much as I do. She let me hijack the icon skripka made for her*. My only complaint is that she doesn't write a lot, but when she does, you're guaranteed something beautiful. Something like Apples Can't Talk which is Nathan & Peter and flying and just amazingness. She's such an awesome generous soul, and she makes me so happy to be a part of fandom. Thank you, sweetie.

While I'm talking about OMGPETRELLISYAYE linaerys wrote a lovely story called Fear of Flying, which is Peter/Nathan, about power dynamics, and trying to be your own person, and it's in Venezia, and there's opera, and it's so quietly beautiful and powerful I just went... oh.

Also, blondiusmaximus drew this extraordinary Petrellis (yes, all of them) Vs. Sylar art and mostly I just like to look at it and go 'Wow.' I think it could only have been improved by Mama Petrelli holding them all in the palm of her hand, because she rocks that hard.

So, I'm totally digging Psych, for the three people who haven't heard me shrieking Gus +Shawn = OTP4EVA at the top of my lungs. I even wrote some of it this week, but mostly I just want to pimp Yes, Shawn, There is a Santa Claus from the yuletide archive, because a) YAY, Yuletide and b) Yay! Wee!Gus and Wee!Shawn!

And before I forget, because we can't be forgetting Caro, barely_bean wrote an absolutely heart-wrenching Nathan & Peter story, Buoy, for Slod's picfor1000 challenge, and since I've already fawned over the story, now it's your turn.

Go give the authors/artists love!

*I really need an icon that says 'In My Next Life I'm Marrying Nathan Petrelli. Twice.'

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Friday's Top 5


The Ashtray Hearts 'Valentine' -- Have I talked about The Ashtray Hearts? Prolly not, since I have three songs by them -- all courtesy of vylit (even though I can't fucking find the CD at the STORE) -- and I have yet to listen to any of the other songs besides this one. I wanted this song for the Petrelli mix, but it didn't fit quite right, so I had to content myself with listening to it 26 times so far this year.

Dixie Chicks 'The Long Way Around' -- hackthis is recommending the Dixie Chicks? OMG! THE WORLD! SHE IS ENDING! Not really. My love for country goes from Johnny Cash to Lyle Lovett to Ryan Adams/Whiskeytown –- that's about it. So, why the hell are the Dixie Chicks here? Well, see, there was this documentary Shut Up and Sing, you might've heard about it. It's a documentary about what happens when you admit that your president is a dumbfuck and you are ashamed he's from your home state. You get death threats. This is a little scary. Even if you are married to Adrian Pasdar. I procured this album immediately after watching the documentary, and let me tell you, it's been a long time since I was this happy to give anybody any money.

Piers Faccini 'Sharpening Bone' -- I got this song from aurgasm mid-last year. I never actually listened to it at the time (we've discussed how sometimes my music lines are jammed), so imagine my shock last month when I was running and this deep, sexy, voice started crooning in my ear, sounding like Jeff Buckley on two packs a day and a case of Jack D, and talking about how love tries to kill you. Oh, yes, precious.

The Fratellis 'Chelsea Dagger' -- Da da dum da da dum da da da da da da dum. You may know this rhythm by now. You may have succumbed in the first three seconds to a song that goes 'Well, you must be a girl with shoes like that.' It's probably infected your brain and you're wondering how it will ever end. Don't fight it, if the Fratellis haven't swallowed your town yet, they will soon enough.

Kaiser Chiefs 'The Angry Mob' -- It's a shame I don’t like The Black Donnellys, because I swear if I did I would sell myself for a month to whomever agreed to make a video using this song. It's only cos you came in with your brothers too, if you came in on your own, you'd be dead.... Actually this is a song about thinking for yourself, stop being one of the mob -- you'll like it. And then go buy Yours Truly, Angry Mob.

So. There was this show on last night. I dunno if anybody caught it besides me. It was called The Petrelli Show. Yeah, it's a good show. Lots of hotassery and angst and like other stuff. Very Shakespearean if you like that sort of thing. I totally recommend it. ( Spoilers for Heroes 1.18 'Parasite )

I don't know how many of you use gmail, but those of you who do know that gmail has this little feature where they offer ads and news stories and links based on the contents of your e-mail. Today, I sent ethrosdemon an e-mail about The Roots album 'Game Theory' and the Notorious B.I.G's 'Greatest Hits' -- to which gmail decided that the best sponsored link response was:

Nigga - www.eBay.com - Great deals on Nigga Shop on eBay and Save!.

Oh really.

For those of you who don't know, both The Roots and Notorious BIG (Biggie Smalls) are rappers. So, naturally, when gmail thinks of rappers they think of 'nigga.' Never mind that nowhere in the e-mail was 'nigga' used as I tend to abbhor the use of this word and find is seriously offensive. So, naturally, I think anybody could understand why I might take a moment to say 'wait. WHAT?' Not just as a black person or as a black women, but as a person in general.

Do they do this for Asian people and Latinos? Have I missed something? Has Google been bought by the ignorant and callous? Naturally I went to Customer Service to complain, but since gmail doesn't seem to have a Customer Service area that isn't just 'Tell us How Much You Love Us,' you can see why I'm a little pissed off.

In 2007 you would think a international conglomerate could show a little fucking TACT. Apparently not.

I was just going to let this slide, but you know, my day is already fucked up, might as well go for broke.

The thing is that I really am of two minds about posting this, because on one hand, it's just so fucking typical of American society these days that I shouldn't be surprised. It's the new 'norm.' Everywhere you go people think it's okay to use the n-word (nigger) because their friends use it, or because it they heard it in a song, or because black people use it, so why can't they? Aren't black people past that whole slavery & racism thing? Why are they still harping on about old shit? Hmmm. Let me think on that for a moment.

I don't know if its a generational issue or maybe I'm just pissed off because it's a racial slur no matter how you spell it. Every time someone says "Well, I used 'nigga' instead of 'nigger', and that's not the same thing" I want to slap them, because guess what?

It is the same thing.

Cracka is the same as faggot is the same as spic as the same as chink. No matter what you try to disguise it as, a slur is a slur is a slur. If you don't want somebody else using it, how about you not use it either? How about people step up and admit when they're fucking wrong for a change?

Anybody know of a good competitor e-mail service?